@hideawayshawn Lost my grandmother to stage 4 breast cancer and lung cancer in March. Still havenβt fully processed it. Iβll get there eventually though. Youβve got this. Time doesnβt take away the pain, but remember they will be with you always.
I went through the worst year of my life last year. Doctors, and hospital stays, and specialists, and even signing a living will. Then I find myself at the precipice of my dream career, but also feel like I have lost everything to get here. My emotional bandwidth is null.
At this point on here I am talking to myself, but getting it out in the open feels cathartic. I want to cry, I want to scream, I want to feel, but I canβt. I am at a point where my brain is telling me no. It sucks and it hurts, but I will survive.
Choosing to be single, not because I donβt love him, but because I stopped loving myself because of how much I loved him. Learning to love myself again