Its there for me. I have options and Reeeaally great ones too, but its just a feeling that overcomes all of those great things and tskes me back to the drawing board.
Oh, and trust me...PLENTY of times i tried speaking to BD about this and honestly, to him. He dgaf. And i guess that is what pushes me to actually go for the "Looking for Love" search
See it this way, i rather have a family, give my daughter the oppurtunity to have both her Mom and Dad and not other strangers that dont kno the history or come into her life without being there from the get go.
I Know for a Fact, if i actually close that chapter in life, ALOT will change. That "Thing" me and BD have will be gone, And tbh im actually pretty afraid of that.
I dont have Hope that me and BD can work shit out, but its more like....Is it worth Losing that possibility. Or is it worth Losing that Cordialness that me and BD have?
So like, why is it hard for me to move on.? To actually give another Man who possibly can offer everything ive been longing for and that i also Deserve
Like, me and BD do have chemistry and im sure we're still attracted to one another but when it comes to actually having a relationship with one another... its Not there.