Mayzen

🖤🩶🤍💜 she/her/her/her/her/her/her SFW ONLY! “That One Doki Avali” (TODA)

[Bible 365 @Bible365_]

Psalms 91 is one of my favorite psalms 🙏

[银碳Gintan @FurryGintan]

曾经的银碳已经死了
我亲手杀死的

经历了在网络上的爆火，到后来的大规模网暴
我从曾经一个开朗乐观每天对生活充满自信的【千叶】变成郁郁寡欢，对世界失望，对人心感到恶心，失去目标和方向想着结束一切，不相信任何人的封闭的自我

那段时间真的很煎熬，我只是跳个舞，做着自己想做的事情，用自己亲手画的设定，没日没夜的汗水付出录制的舞蹈视频来赚取我认为合理合法的收入，不知道为什么就会这么多人讨厌我，甚至给我安上所谓的【兽圈政治罪犯】，他背叛了兽圈，这样的不知道谁制定的兽圈法律的帽子

我曾经真的觉得这个圈子的所有都非常非常美好，大家会可能因为现实生活中自己相貌平平，性格内向而不敢社交，羞于表达，但有了毛毛之后，大家可以肆意拥抱，一起玩耍，多么温暖美好的世界，这才是我认为最棒的兽圈文化，大家通过兽设定，兽装，拉近人与人之间的距离，又因为喜欢同一个文化而交到志同道合的朋友，然后将这份美好代代传承

但渐渐的我发现，一部分人它只是披上一层皮，将自己丑恶不堪的内心掩饰起来，即便毛毛再可爱，人心依旧是脏的，做出来的事情让人反胃，话说的很难听，但这是我这几年在兽圈的真实感受

大概两年多的时间我一直被这种情绪困扰，心理状况也非常的不好，那段时间整整一周都吃不下任何东西，每天打开手机都是铺天盖地的谩骂，躺在床上看着这些消息一边哭，哭到没有力气再睡着，醒来之后继续痛苦的持续这个过程，还有人把我的身份证家庭住址公布到网上，给我打电话让我去死，甚至给我父母发消息骚扰

但现在的我，身边有一群一直支持我，喜爱我的粉丝和朋友，不论任何时候都坚定的站在我身后为我应援，我真的很感谢很感谢我有坚持下来，我开始重新相信这个世界，相信身的朋友，相信会变得越来越好，真的多亏了大家给我的爱，没有你们，银碳也许早就退圈了

现在能平静的说出这些来，也算是内心变得强大的证明，我杀死了从前的自己，蜕变的过程很煎熬，但我建立了新的目标和信念，现在的我知道如何保护自己，爱自己，我不会再为不值得的人和事费时间费心力，我会一直努力做出别人做不到的了不起的作品，站在别人走不到的顶峰

我为现在的自己骄傲，银碳你真的很厉害❤️

[Mayzen @WhosMayzen]

@TropCycArt eevee!

[Mayzen @WhosMayzen]

@TropCycArt odd

[Isaiah Robin @isaiahrobinlive]

🚨Man interviews a random man, and ended up receiving the word of God🙏

[Mayzen @WhosMayzen]

@TheInodog Im really sorry this happened. im praying whatever happens nexts works out completely in your favor!!

[Mayzen @WhosMayzen]

ART TIME ONCE AGAIN!!😭💯

[Mayzen @WhosMayzen]

@xiaoquandoki10 @LanqiMomento @Wyvern290797 ANOTHER AVALI!!

[Mayzen @WhosMayzen]

@TropCycArt up until about a month ago it felt like they had infants running the place. it was so bad but trust it will be uphill from here (i hope)

[Mayzen @WhosMayzen]

@TropCycArt you can be our saving grace!!!! #SaveSiege

[Mayzen @WhosMayzen]

@TropCycArt your lighting game is actually so fire!

[Mayzen @WhosMayzen]

@TropCycArt amazing

[Mayzen @WhosMayzen]

i need to get off this app.

[Domino's Pizza UK @Dominos_UK]

nvm i fixed it

[Mayzen @WhosMayzen]

@arlinmoore_ ez dif. amayzen teddy bear fursuit >> plain black jacket with no style

furries got suits double the cost twin.

[Mayzen @WhosMayzen]

@ibrycecrawford i will tell you this right now bryce. that feeling you had that morning was completely God given.

the timing was actually so insane and a perfect reminder that God loves unconditionally but his grace will run out!

there is no outrunning his coming.

[Mayzen @WhosMayzen]

@iheartkira_

[Mayzen @WhosMayzen]

@LuiCalibre @Puttherr “who is puttherr” haven’t heard that name in years

[Mayzen @WhosMayzen]

@TropCycArt we are here! we care about you. i apologize my schedule has been so hectic. i’m really down to hang out more!

[Mayzen @WhosMayzen]

You bring the light to this dark world
Lord thank you for this life you have given me I would not be here without you and thank you for the wonderful people you have so graciously brought into my life.