Willow Fae

The Teepee Project — healing by Earth, Water, Wind and Fire. Always Grateful. No Regrets. Hand-sculpted copper Tree of Life art. I was never meant to bow.

[Willow Fae @Willow_Fae13]

I owe this room an honest word.

When I started The Teepee Project here, I promised weekly threads and live circles — I put the cart before the horse before the horse was even bridled. Then life collected its due all at once: my body, my work, more than I could carry. I didn't close the door. I just stopped showing up, and that's not how I want to leave anything.

So here is the truer shape of it. The seeds are the same — Earth, Water, Wind, Fire, and the knowing underneath them. But there will be no lives for the time being, and no weekly promises I can't keep. What I post here will be real when I post it, and quiet when I'm quiet. That's not a smaller commitment. It's an honest one.

Always Grateful. No Regrets.

I think, I feel, but I KNOW ❣️
— Willow Fae

[Willow Fae @Willow_Fae13]

Got my work are set up today!

[Willow Fae @Willow_Fae13]

Opening
I feel nothing yet I feel everything.

I live in darkness yet I cling to the hope of life.

My mind is still yet a hurricane of thought.

I don’t hate myself but I don’t love myself either.

I am void of self.

I am a vessel of pain yet refuse to break.

I am the rage that moves the tide yet I keep still waters.

My body craves feeling but pleasure comes with the price of pain.

I bite the hand that feeds and lick the boot that kicks.

I am not wanted I am convenient.

They hate the reflection I am of them.

They despise me as if I am the creator of their self.

I am too much yet never right or enough.

**Origin**
I was raised to be void of self so that I may be available to take on the self of others.

I did not ask for this.

They didn’t do it on purpose.

I am what they made me.

My light casts upon their shadows and shows them the truth of their deeper selves.

I am the right that is wrong.
I am highly self aware.

I am extremely sensitive.

I cry even when I don’t experience the pain.

I pour from an empty vessel only I can fill.

I am the binder that weeps for others because I wasn’t allowed to weep for myself.

I became the opposite of selfish.

**Guilt & Punishment**
I find guilt in pleasure and therefore welcome the punishment of pain.

I bruise my body just to feel.

Yet I feel everything with a thought, a glance, a word.

I seek understanding without knowing.

Nothing makes sense yet I collect more data.

I want to have faith.

I want to believe.

Yet I am blind without knowing.

I am shackled to the past because they won’t let me move on.

I try to free myself.

I pull until my mind and body break yet I keep pulling.

The rubber band keeps taut in place.

It keeps me paying for their pain, their regret, their lack of growth.

The Inbetween
I was never meant to bow yet they keep knocking my knees out.

I rise I burn I rise I burn.

I lose myself on the ember path.

I am on fire walking alone because I don’t belong.

I am no one’s choice just obligation.

They watch me burn.

They smile they laugh they point their fingers and condemn me.

I keep going — one step, one breath, one moment at a time.

I scream silently because it falls on deaf ears.

I am the sound of silence in the noise.

I am the void.

I don't need to die because I already killed myself in my mind.

I feel kind of like Siddhartha.

Reckoning
They say my love is wrong, false.

How can I love others if I don’t know how to love myself?

I love because I am void of self and no one should ever feel that.

I love wholly.

I love completely.

I love without restraint, condition, or expectation.

I love freely without obligation.

I love because I can.

[Willow Fae @Willow_Fae13]

@fw_naetoblaq I drink coffee to help me sleep.

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I’ve been lost in my art. I will add more pictures of my work!

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I know I’m not done, therefore I am still moving forward!

What do you know today??

[Willow Fae @Willow_Fae13]

400 years ago, Descartes said, "I think, therefore I am." Today, I’m proposing an evolution: "I know, therefore I am."

Thoughts and feelings are often just the "Noise." They dictate our state of mind even when they go against our Core.

I think I’m tired. I feel defeated. But I KNOW I’m not, because I’m still moving. What do you know today that the noise can't drown out?

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@DeptofTime Yes.

[Willow Fae @Willow_Fae13]

@Nandini04682523 @ick_real I looked it over and some of it I already do but there was stuff I haven't tried. I am excited to incorporate this into my life and see how I do. I will share my results with you. Thank you, I appreciate this greatly.

[Willow Fae @Willow_Fae13]

@Nandini04682523 @ick_real I'll check it out and let you know. Thank you 😊

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@DeptofTime Yes. I no longer expect anything from anyone. Life has taught me that expectation no matter how logical it is, is futile. Now I hope, but accept the truth for what it is.

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So, this just showed up in my notifications which has never happened before, and it struck so deep in me. I am currently editing my novel and for some reason this hit and is going to keep me pushing through this phase of my writing. Whatever the reason you posted this, thank you.

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@BalogunSonia4 Self-destructive behavior.

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@DeptofTime Surprisingly yes. I have stopped tolerating bad behavior towards me. I don't fight back, I just stay silent and walk away. I protect my own peace now and that is completely new to me but I'm liking it lol.

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Understanding all pain whether mental or physical is unique to the beholder of said pain. Not all pain looks the same nor is it the same. For me we should normalize not trying to compare pain levels or minimizing someone else's, simply have compassion, you don't need understand it.

[Willow Fae @Willow_Fae13]

Welcome to The Teepee Project 🌿
Here you will find a judgment-free space — a safe shelter amid life’s storms.

In the Teepee we name the storms, learn the direction of the wind, and gently sort through the noise of the world.

We don’t fix.

We heal.

We hold ourselves accountable for our own roles, but we do not place blame.

We gently figure out what responsibility we are carrying that is not ours, and how to reconcile what truly belongs to us.

Here we learn to release what no longer serves our core being and free ourselves from the noise we didn’t create.

This is a space for presence, not pressure.

Come exactly as you are.

Breathe.

Name what’s loud.

You are safe here.

[Willow Fae @Willow_Fae13]

@Just_jujet I love seeing him pop up because I know everything is about to get crazy.

[Willow Fae @Willow_Fae13]

@DeptofTime It taught me to listen among other things.

[Willow Fae @Willow_Fae13]

@prmade313raised Age check I was born in the earlier parts of the 1980s and I honestly didn't know much about Michael Jackson. Now as an adult I'm like what an incredible man.

[Willow Fae @Willow_Fae13]

@DeptofTime That nothing is forever.