I Am An Esther

A God-driven journey in this open journal

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Exodus 14:14

The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.

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Kung ako ikakagalit ko yun, pero sila? They still need to be kind, gentle, forgiving— as if they have other choices to act differently. This is the truth that no one sees. So just like his question "at what cost and to what extent", may God bless far beyond what they can think.

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Cute how I became the girls' listener and ate, but you know what's cuter? When Ptra do the sameee 🥺

"Ay hindi ko narinig, nagra-rant kasi ako"

Cutieee and thank you rin sa trust ptra 🥺❤️

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Kagabi, I heard the side of her son. Grabe, extended talaga sa mga anak ang cost ng calling nila. To think that despite the pain, hurt, and anger they may feel as a normal person— they have to remain 'good' in every way.

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So whenever inaatake ako uli, I film myself writing since apektado rin right arm/hand ko. I can barely hold the pen

For this time, it lasted 10-20 mins? Di ko na nakita time. Yes, I'm crying 😭

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So which came from the Lord and was not? 🥹

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I just can't leave you. That's it, I can't leave you

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Remember, there is a BIG CLEAR LINE that he is not the one for you, self. Stop settling with the idea of "mas gugustuhin ko pang siya na lang kaysa sa iba". You know it better, Allen— even the best of it. YOU SHOULDN'T COMPROMISE!!

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That's just the bare minimum pero ganun pala kapag galing sa kanya.

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Minsan hindi ko na alam rin eh. Hindi lang rin naman ako yung nagtuturo sa mga kabataan.

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Anywaaaay, si ptra naman puro "ano full time ka na?" HAHAHAHAHA hirap po sagutin dahil bata pa ako. I mean, I don't consider the world either. Career? Fame? Wala na rin talaga. Pero hinahatak ako ng obligations ko rin as a daughter to my parents.

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I don't know, seryoso ba talaga si Ptra every time they say "full-time or pastoring" about sakin? Is it really my calling? Last time they told me "pag-isipan mo, between you and the Lord" then nung Saturday nabanggit uli yung "hindi ka magiging pastor kung nag-doctor ka"

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I broke my streak since 2023!!! Iykyk haha

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May this is a change haha

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Grabe Lord, hindi lang basta kasangga sa life group pero namumunga na rin? May opportunity na lumago? Grabe lang Lord, ang galing Mo po! Yung ginawa at patuloy Mong ginagawa sa buhay, salamat at mararanasan rin ng Esthers at KKBs!! Thank you for another answered prayer!!

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A close friend of mine has this kind of rule: "I would spend my 10-minute study break with you". At first, I know sakin lang yun. Pero now alam kong hindi haha. Sometimes I would wait for his 10 mins, I won't disturb him at all. If he won't initiate the 10 mins, I won't either.