The feeling of being surrounded by friends and people who are close to your heart, yet still being unable to open up about what hurts you. It’s as if every time you want to tell someone about your pain, you pull back and wonder how heavy your words might feel to them ,,
believing that no one wants to hear what you’re going through, as though you’re repeating the same story and the same phrases over and over again. I am falling apart. I long for a shoulder to lay this heavy burden on and finally breathe properly.
The feeling that the person you loved the most is coming back this summer, and everyone is trying to improve your relationship, but you don’t want to… what a disgusting feeling.
اللّهم إنّا نسألك بأسمك العظيم الأعظم الذي إذا دُعيت به أجبت، وإذا سُئلت به أعطيت، وبأسمائك الحُسنى كلّها ما علمنا منها وما لم نعلم، أن تستجيب لنا دعواتنا وتُحقّق رغباتنا، وتقضي حوائجنا وتفرج كروبنا، وتغفر ذنوبنا وتستر عُيوبنا وتتوب علينا وتعافينا وتعفو عنا.
The feeling of loneliness is sometimes amazing, and sometimes it breaks you to the point where you wonder: I used to be surrounded by people—how did I end up alone?.