XReaperNeskX

[XReaperNeskX @XReaperNeskX]

Drim, i know you will probably never see this, but i miss you, i miss our relation, i know i fucked upw that im nor perfect and asked for many second chances and i should probably give up, but i cant, you are a world i built myself around, i love you, please come back

[XReaperNeskX @XReaperNeskX]

"dumbass?"

[XReaperNeskX @XReaperNeskX]

"what did you do..." [1/2]"

[XReaperNeskX @XReaperNeskX]

I just wish i was dead right now, im tired of suffering from lonelines and feel like indont have goals in my life

[XReaperNeskX @XReaperNeskX]

Im scared if using a blade, so i just dug py nails on my arms, my torso and my shoulders, it stungs and burns so i guess it counts for something

[XReaperNeskX @XReaperNeskX]

i wanna die, i miss her, my life is worthless and im nothing without her, i dont even know what i want, but nobody cares , she wont see this, but genually i wanna kms, i miss you, i love you, please come back, i know im not good enough, but i cant without you, i cant do this

[XReaperNeskX @XReaperNeskX]

forgot to update it , but i did , not expecting an answer or me to suddenly feel better, but at least im finally honest

[XReaperNeskX @XReaperNeskX]

should i talk to her? say how i feel, say that i miss her and still love her

[XReaperNeskX @XReaperNeskX]

@MEMOMASKY brainwashed yet its about how women in this "religion" who cant do anything , people need to grow a brain istg

[XReaperNeskX @XReaperNeskX]

I dont have the courage to use a blade so i found alternatives

-Maximum heat shower (to burn)
-Not eating
-Not sleeping
-If eating, drinking too much to spit everything out
-lots of monster energy to attack my heart

[XReaperNeskX @XReaperNeskX]

I'm all alone, swarmed by a awfull life i tried my best to escape, lost people that meant a lot to me

i can do this anymore, this mask of acting like im fine isnt working anymore, i dont know what to do, im lost, im alone, im sorry

[XReaperNeskX @XReaperNeskX]

i feel like im slowly turning insane, not eating , not sleeping

i just wanna talk to someone , have someone that loves me , someone that makes me feel usefull

[XReaperNeskX @XReaperNeskX]

my mom's illness got worst
diagnosed bipolar again
heart issues had gotten worst
cant find a job during a given session which will give me trouble

this world is against me when im trying my best and try to fix every mistakes i did
I feel like i want to end it again

[XReaperNeskX @XReaperNeskX]

and i lost the person i cared for the most, that gave me purpose and brought me real genuine smiles

[XReaperNeskX @XReaperNeskX]

@eclipsedmao_ this is NOT me

[XReaperNeskX @XReaperNeskX]

Days without you feels like eternity
My life after you left now feel worthless, without a reason to continue
i wanted to draw it,but it reminds me of you, and it hurts, it hurts thats i really miss you.

I just hope you are happy, that you continue to do what you love without me

[XReaperNeskX @XReaperNeskX]

@ecIipsedmao yes no no yes no yes yes no yes(just to try) yes yes no yes no

[XReaperNeskX @XReaperNeskX]

@Mellytheapple aye congrats

[XReaperNeskX @XReaperNeskX]

@ecIipsedmao "dont be affraid"
Im something else than affraid

[XReaperNeskX @XReaperNeskX]

@frenchstinkybat 500 renames