![shadowlite_'s tweet photo. I HAVE $50K [NGN75,000,000] DEBT STILL LEFT TO PAY AFTER 2 YEARS AND I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO PAY IT.
WHY?
I ALMOST DIED FOUR TIMES
NOT IN SOME POETIC, METAPHORICAL WAY.
I MEAN I STOOD ON THE EDGE, AND SOMETHING, OR SOMEONE YANKED ME BACK EVERY SINGLE TIME.
AFTER THE FOURTH, I STOPPED FIGHTING THE IDEA THAT MAYBE THE UNIVERSE WASN’T DONE WITH ME YET.
BUT THE UNIVERSE HAS A SICK SENSE OF HUMOUR.
IT KEPT ME ALIVE… AND THEN HANDED ME A BILL FOR OVER 100 MILLION NAIRA.
SO NOW I AM JUST REALLY TRYING MY BEST TO DISCOVER HOW BEST I CAN AFFECT THE WORLD POSITIVELY...........
SO HELLO, BEAUTIFUL SOULS!!!.….. HAPPY NEW MONTH!!!... AND HERE IS MY NOVEMBER DUMP....
I AM GRATEFUL THAT YOU STILL ARE READING THIS..... PLEASE STICK TILL THE END.... IT GETS BETTER I PROMISE...
ON MOST DAYS I JUST LURK, LIKE, SCROLL, THEN LOG OFF BECAUSE MY HEAD’S TOO HEAVY TO TALK.
BECAUSE THIS HAS BEEN EATING ME ALIVE FOR YEARS ... IT’S PART OF WHY I HAD TO LEAVE MEDICAL SCHOOL FOR A FEW YEARS...
IT’S WHY DEPRESSION GOT SO LOUD SOME DAYS I COULDN’T LEAVE MY ROOM. I’VE MANAGED TO PAY BACK A FEW THOUSAND DOLLARS ON MY OWN FROM A FEW GIGS OVER A YEAR AND A HALF .
BUT ABOUT 50K DOLLARS IS STILL LEFT TO PAY AND THE REALITY I DO NOT WANT TO ADMIT YET IS THAT I MIGHT TAKE THIS DEBT WITH ME TO 2026...AND THATS WAS MY WAKE UP CALL.... HENCE WHY I AM DOING THIS.....
I THOUGHT CRYPTO TRADING WOULD SAVE ME.....GET ME OUT OF THE TRENCHES LOL. ..,..YOU KNOW THE HUSTLERS MINDSET YEAH.... ANYWAYS I USED TO BE A VERY GOOD TRADER ....AND I HAD A NUMBER OF INVESTORS THAT I TRADED FOR.
BUT ONE IN PARTICULAR STOOD OUT AND HAS BECOME LIKE FAMILY SO THE GUILT IS EATING ME UP ALIVE THAT I ALLOWED MYSELF TO LOSE SO MUCH MONEY THAT HAS AFFECTED THIS MAN AND SO MANY OTHERS SO MUCH....
I AM NO STRANGER TO HOW MUCH UNFORSEEN TRAUMA CAN ALTER ONES LIFE TRAJECTORY BECAUSE HONESTLY I COULD SAY ITS ONE MR LUCKY- OYALUNA-HAKEEM THAT SCAMED ME WHEN I WAS 19 THAT LED ME ONTO THE PATH OF DESPERATION-INDUCED TRADING AND MONEY MAKING....
A DECISION I SEVERELY REGRET.......SO I REALLY REALLY DO WANT TO PAY OFF MY DEBTS AS QUICKLY AS I CAN TO AVOID CAUSING SO MUCH NEGATIVE RIPPLE EFFECTS IN THE LIVES OF THE PEOPLE AFFECTED.......
BECAUSE WHETHER WE LIKE IT OR NOT HUMANITY IS A DELICATE FABRIC OF WOVEN THREADS AND OUR ACTIONS CAN EITHER MAKE OR BREAK EACH OTHER
I STARTED TRADING IN 2019.....IT TOOK UNTIL 2021 TO BECOME PROFITABLE AND TILL 2024 TO BE BACK IN NET LOSS......
ANYWAYS I WAS CARELESS AND I FELL VICTIM TO AVOIDABLE LOSSES.... IT GOT TO A POINT IN MY WINNING STREAK WHERE I STARTED TO THINK I COULDN'T LOSE... IT FELT LIKE I WAS UNTOUCHABLE AND THE INVESTORS LOVED MY CONFIDENCE SO THEY INVESTED MORE
BUT THE MARKET ALWAYS FINDS WAYS TO HUMBLE YOU ... LONG STORY SHORT CRYPTO TRADING DIDN'T SAVE ME.....
IT JUST KEPT DIGGING THE HOLE DEEPER.
I HAD SOLD MY CARS, GADGETS, LANDED PROPERTIES AND ALMOST EVERYTHING I HAD TO PAY OFF SOME PEOPLE IN 2024.......THAT DIDN'T SOLVE EVERYTHING BUT IT REDUCED THE PRESSURE ON ME .....
WHEN IT ALL ESCALATED IN SEPTEMBER 2024.... I GAVE MYSELF TILL NOV 30, 2025 TO RECOVER EVERYTHING I LOST FROM TRADING AND THAT DEADLINE JUST PASSED WITH THE LAST MONTH.
SINCE THE DEADLINE I HAS PASSED .... I’M FINALLY ACCEPTING THAT THE CRYPTO TRADING PATH IS CLOSED .......
WORTHY OF NOTE THAT THE MOMENT I SAID “I’M DONE" OUT LOUD ....SOMETHING CRACKED OPEN INSIDE MY CHEST.
FOR THE FIRST TIME IN YEARS, I WOKE UP EXCITED.
NOT FOR CHARTS. NOT FOR 100X LEVERAGE.
BUT FOR A PENCIL... SEEING PEOPLE EYES LIT UP WHEN I SKETCHED THEM HEALED A PART OF ME. THAT WAS WHEN I REMEMBERED WHO I WAS BEFORE THE DEBT
THE KID WHO FINISHED TOP OF HIS SET IN SECONDARY SCHOOL WITHOUT OPENING A BOOK TWICE.
THE 400-LEVEL MEDICAL STUDENT WHO COASTED ON RAW TALENT AND NEVER LEARNED HOW TO ACTUALLY FIGHT FOR SOMETHING.
THE GUY WHO COULD DRAW YOUR SOUL ON PAPER IN 10-60 MINUTES FLAT.
I’M IN MY LATE MID TWENTIES NOW, DEGREE-LESS, BROKE, AND TERRIFYINGLY ALIVE.
AND I’M ASKING, NO, I’M BEGGING THE WORLD FOR ONE LAST SAVE.
I NEED THIS DEBT GONE SO I CAN BREATHE AGAIN.
SO DEPRESSION STOPS WINNING.
SO I CAN FINISH MEDICINE [BDS SPECIFICALLY], OR NOT, BUT AT LEAST CHOOSE MY LIFE INSTEAD OF HAVING IT CHOSEN BY DEBT
I’M EXCITED AGAIN ABOUT..... SUNRISE, MUSIC,FLOWERS,RAIN,WIND ..........LIFE!!!
I CAN EVEN GENUINELY SMILE AGAIN WITHOUT FEELING GUILTY......... AND I AM GRATEFUL FOR THESE LITTLE THINGS.... AND I WOULD LIKE TO PROTECT IT BECAUSE I GENUINELY LOVE THE PERSON I AM WHEN I AM NOT OVERWHELMED BY DEBT........ HE NEEDS TO REDEEM HIMSELF IN THE EYES OF EVERYONE HE HAS HURT SO FAR.....
HOWEVER ALL THE EGO DEATH, LOVE, AND LIGHT I CURRENTLY FEEL IS ALL BECAUSE OF ART..I STARTED TO SKETCH PEOPLE TO FUNDRAISE FOR AN OUTREACH TO THE SLUMS AND PAY FOR A MEDICAL BILL
BUT I NOW KNOW EXACTLY WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY, GIVES ME HOPE AND MAKES ME EXCITED TO WAKE UP ANOTHER DAY..... THE INTERSECTION BETWEEN ART AND COMMUNITY SERVICE IS WHERE MY HAPPINESSS IS
HAVING TRIED A LOT OF GIGS THAT I HAVE FOUND NO FULFILMENT BUT A MEANS TO A STIPEND IN..... I HAVE CONCLUDED THAT IN ALL HONESTY....
HAVING THIS WEIGHT OFF MY BACK WOULD HELP ME BREATHE AGAIN IN TURN ENABLE ME TO GET BACK TO BEING A HIGH FUNCTIONING MEMBER OF SOCIETY THAT CAN CONTRIBUTE IMMENSELY TO MAKING POSITIVE IMPACT.
I AM VERY TALENTED AND VERY RESOURCEFUL BUT DEPRESSION HAS EATEN AWAY AT MY CORE AND I DO NOT LIKE THE PERSON I AM BECOMING SO THIS IS MY CRY OUT TO THE WORLD TO PLEASE HELP ME RECLAIM MY SOUL!!!! AND GET MY LIFE BACK ON TRACK FASTER....
I AM SCARED A MISTAKE I MADE WHEN I WAS 19 HAS DRAGGED ON TO MY LATE 20S AND THE REST MIGHT PROBABLY END UP BEING DEDICATED TO DEBT REPAYMENT ....... I HAVE LOST WAY TOO MUCH TIME
HAVING TO DROP OUT OF MEDICAL SCHOOL IN 400LVL...
I HAVE APPLIED FOR REINSTATEMENT BUT THERE IS THE POSSIBILITY I MIGHT NOT BE ACCEPTED TO GO BACK AFTER LEAVING SO ABRUPTLY SO I HAVE WRITTEN JUPEB AND CAME OUT TOP 10 OUT OF THOUSANDS OF APPLICANTS
I HAVE A TRACK RECORD OF BEING ABLE TO EASILY EXCEL ABOVE MY PEERS WITH MINIMAL EFFORT EVER SINCE PRIMARY , SECONDARY SCH DAYS AND EVEN IN MEDICAL SCHOOL I COULD EASILY PASS WITH MINIMAL EFFORT.....
SO THE PAST FEW YEARS OF MY LIFE HAS FELT LIKE AN UNENDING HORROR CUTSCENE BECAUSE I COULD NEVER BREAK THAT THRESHOLD CONSCIOUSLY ANYMORE.....
I HAVE DONE ALL SORTS OF JOBS AND TAKEN ALL SORTS OF GIGS AND I AM STILL IN NO WHERE CLOSE TO MY GOAL](https://pbs.twimg.com/media/G7Pv7AaXMAAKX2F.jpg)
![shadowlite_'s tweet photo. I HAVE $50K [NGN75,000,000] DEBT STILL LEFT TO PAY AFTER 2 YEARS AND I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO PAY IT.
WHY?
I ALMOST DIED FOUR TIMES
NOT IN SOME POETIC, METAPHORICAL WAY.
I MEAN I STOOD ON THE EDGE, AND SOMETHING, OR SOMEONE YANKED ME BACK EVERY SINGLE TIME.
AFTER THE FOURTH, I STOPPED FIGHTING THE IDEA THAT MAYBE THE UNIVERSE WASN’T DONE WITH ME YET.
BUT THE UNIVERSE HAS A SICK SENSE OF HUMOUR.
IT KEPT ME ALIVE… AND THEN HANDED ME A BILL FOR OVER 100 MILLION NAIRA.
SO NOW I AM JUST REALLY TRYING MY BEST TO DISCOVER HOW BEST I CAN AFFECT THE WORLD POSITIVELY...........
SO HELLO, BEAUTIFUL SOULS!!!.….. HAPPY NEW MONTH!!!... AND HERE IS MY NOVEMBER DUMP....
I AM GRATEFUL THAT YOU STILL ARE READING THIS..... PLEASE STICK TILL THE END.... IT GETS BETTER I PROMISE...
ON MOST DAYS I JUST LURK, LIKE, SCROLL, THEN LOG OFF BECAUSE MY HEAD’S TOO HEAVY TO TALK.
BECAUSE THIS HAS BEEN EATING ME ALIVE FOR YEARS ... IT’S PART OF WHY I HAD TO LEAVE MEDICAL SCHOOL FOR A FEW YEARS...
IT’S WHY DEPRESSION GOT SO LOUD SOME DAYS I COULDN’T LEAVE MY ROOM. I’VE MANAGED TO PAY BACK A FEW THOUSAND DOLLARS ON MY OWN FROM A FEW GIGS OVER A YEAR AND A HALF .
BUT ABOUT 50K DOLLARS IS STILL LEFT TO PAY AND THE REALITY I DO NOT WANT TO ADMIT YET IS THAT I MIGHT TAKE THIS DEBT WITH ME TO 2026...AND THATS WAS MY WAKE UP CALL.... HENCE WHY I AM DOING THIS.....
I THOUGHT CRYPTO TRADING WOULD SAVE ME.....GET ME OUT OF THE TRENCHES LOL. ..,..YOU KNOW THE HUSTLERS MINDSET YEAH.... ANYWAYS I USED TO BE A VERY GOOD TRADER ....AND I HAD A NUMBER OF INVESTORS THAT I TRADED FOR.
BUT ONE IN PARTICULAR STOOD OUT AND HAS BECOME LIKE FAMILY SO THE GUILT IS EATING ME UP ALIVE THAT I ALLOWED MYSELF TO LOSE SO MUCH MONEY THAT HAS AFFECTED THIS MAN AND SO MANY OTHERS SO MUCH....
I AM NO STRANGER TO HOW MUCH UNFORSEEN TRAUMA CAN ALTER ONES LIFE TRAJECTORY BECAUSE HONESTLY I COULD SAY ITS ONE MR LUCKY- OYALUNA-HAKEEM THAT SCAMED ME WHEN I WAS 19 THAT LED ME ONTO THE PATH OF DESPERATION-INDUCED TRADING AND MONEY MAKING....
A DECISION I SEVERELY REGRET.......SO I REALLY REALLY DO WANT TO PAY OFF MY DEBTS AS QUICKLY AS I CAN TO AVOID CAUSING SO MUCH NEGATIVE RIPPLE EFFECTS IN THE LIVES OF THE PEOPLE AFFECTED.......
BECAUSE WHETHER WE LIKE IT OR NOT HUMANITY IS A DELICATE FABRIC OF WOVEN THREADS AND OUR ACTIONS CAN EITHER MAKE OR BREAK EACH OTHER
I STARTED TRADING IN 2019.....IT TOOK UNTIL 2021 TO BECOME PROFITABLE AND TILL 2024 TO BE BACK IN NET LOSS......
ANYWAYS I WAS CARELESS AND I FELL VICTIM TO AVOIDABLE LOSSES.... IT GOT TO A POINT IN MY WINNING STREAK WHERE I STARTED TO THINK I COULDN'T LOSE... IT FELT LIKE I WAS UNTOUCHABLE AND THE INVESTORS LOVED MY CONFIDENCE SO THEY INVESTED MORE
BUT THE MARKET ALWAYS FINDS WAYS TO HUMBLE YOU ... LONG STORY SHORT CRYPTO TRADING DIDN'T SAVE ME.....
IT JUST KEPT DIGGING THE HOLE DEEPER.
I HAD SOLD MY CARS, GADGETS, LANDED PROPERTIES AND ALMOST EVERYTHING I HAD TO PAY OFF SOME PEOPLE IN 2024.......THAT DIDN'T SOLVE EVERYTHING BUT IT REDUCED THE PRESSURE ON ME .....
WHEN IT ALL ESCALATED IN SEPTEMBER 2024.... I GAVE MYSELF TILL NOV 30, 2025 TO RECOVER EVERYTHING I LOST FROM TRADING AND THAT DEADLINE JUST PASSED WITH THE LAST MONTH.
SINCE THE DEADLINE I HAS PASSED .... I’M FINALLY ACCEPTING THAT THE CRYPTO TRADING PATH IS CLOSED .......
WORTHY OF NOTE THAT THE MOMENT I SAID “I’M DONE" OUT LOUD ....SOMETHING CRACKED OPEN INSIDE MY CHEST.
FOR THE FIRST TIME IN YEARS, I WOKE UP EXCITED.
NOT FOR CHARTS. NOT FOR 100X LEVERAGE.
BUT FOR A PENCIL... SEEING PEOPLE EYES LIT UP WHEN I SKETCHED THEM HEALED A PART OF ME. THAT WAS WHEN I REMEMBERED WHO I WAS BEFORE THE DEBT
THE KID WHO FINISHED TOP OF HIS SET IN SECONDARY SCHOOL WITHOUT OPENING A BOOK TWICE.
THE 400-LEVEL MEDICAL STUDENT WHO COASTED ON RAW TALENT AND NEVER LEARNED HOW TO ACTUALLY FIGHT FOR SOMETHING.
THE GUY WHO COULD DRAW YOUR SOUL ON PAPER IN 10-60 MINUTES FLAT.
I’M IN MY LATE MID TWENTIES NOW, DEGREE-LESS, BROKE, AND TERRIFYINGLY ALIVE.
AND I’M ASKING, NO, I’M BEGGING THE WORLD FOR ONE LAST SAVE.
I NEED THIS DEBT GONE SO I CAN BREATHE AGAIN.
SO DEPRESSION STOPS WINNING.
SO I CAN FINISH MEDICINE [BDS SPECIFICALLY], OR NOT, BUT AT LEAST CHOOSE MY LIFE INSTEAD OF HAVING IT CHOSEN BY DEBT
I’M EXCITED AGAIN ABOUT..... SUNRISE, MUSIC,FLOWERS,RAIN,WIND ..........LIFE!!!
I CAN EVEN GENUINELY SMILE AGAIN WITHOUT FEELING GUILTY......... AND I AM GRATEFUL FOR THESE LITTLE THINGS.... AND I WOULD LIKE TO PROTECT IT BECAUSE I GENUINELY LOVE THE PERSON I AM WHEN I AM NOT OVERWHELMED BY DEBT........ HE NEEDS TO REDEEM HIMSELF IN THE EYES OF EVERYONE HE HAS HURT SO FAR.....
HOWEVER ALL THE EGO DEATH, LOVE, AND LIGHT I CURRENTLY FEEL IS ALL BECAUSE OF ART..I STARTED TO SKETCH PEOPLE TO FUNDRAISE FOR AN OUTREACH TO THE SLUMS AND PAY FOR A MEDICAL BILL
BUT I NOW KNOW EXACTLY WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY, GIVES ME HOPE AND MAKES ME EXCITED TO WAKE UP ANOTHER DAY..... THE INTERSECTION BETWEEN ART AND COMMUNITY SERVICE IS WHERE MY HAPPINESSS IS
HAVING TRIED A LOT OF GIGS THAT I HAVE FOUND NO FULFILMENT BUT A MEANS TO A STIPEND IN..... I HAVE CONCLUDED THAT IN ALL HONESTY....
HAVING THIS WEIGHT OFF MY BACK WOULD HELP ME BREATHE AGAIN IN TURN ENABLE ME TO GET BACK TO BEING A HIGH FUNCTIONING MEMBER OF SOCIETY THAT CAN CONTRIBUTE IMMENSELY TO MAKING POSITIVE IMPACT.
I AM VERY TALENTED AND VERY RESOURCEFUL BUT DEPRESSION HAS EATEN AWAY AT MY CORE AND I DO NOT LIKE THE PERSON I AM BECOMING SO THIS IS MY CRY OUT TO THE WORLD TO PLEASE HELP ME RECLAIM MY SOUL!!!! AND GET MY LIFE BACK ON TRACK FASTER....
I AM SCARED A MISTAKE I MADE WHEN I WAS 19 HAS DRAGGED ON TO MY LATE 20S AND THE REST MIGHT PROBABLY END UP BEING DEDICATED TO DEBT REPAYMENT ....... I HAVE LOST WAY TOO MUCH TIME
HAVING TO DROP OUT OF MEDICAL SCHOOL IN 400LVL...
I HAVE APPLIED FOR REINSTATEMENT BUT THERE IS THE POSSIBILITY I MIGHT NOT BE ACCEPTED TO GO BACK AFTER LEAVING SO ABRUPTLY SO I HAVE WRITTEN JUPEB AND CAME OUT TOP 10 OUT OF THOUSANDS OF APPLICANTS
I HAVE A TRACK RECORD OF BEING ABLE TO EASILY EXCEL ABOVE MY PEERS WITH MINIMAL EFFORT EVER SINCE PRIMARY , SECONDARY SCH DAYS AND EVEN IN MEDICAL SCHOOL I COULD EASILY PASS WITH MINIMAL EFFORT.....
SO THE PAST FEW YEARS OF MY LIFE HAS FELT LIKE AN UNENDING HORROR CUTSCENE BECAUSE I COULD NEVER BREAK THAT THRESHOLD CONSCIOUSLY ANYMORE.....
I HAVE DONE ALL SORTS OF JOBS AND TAKEN ALL SORTS OF GIGS AND I AM STILL IN NO WHERE CLOSE TO MY GOAL](https://pbs.twimg.com/media/G7Pv7ATWwAAlXjh.jpg)
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Dr. Tayo Ojo, consultant neurosurgeon at LUTH.
He, together with Dr. Onya performed a brain surgery on Aproko doctor to remove a craniopharyngioma in December 2022.
I met him during CMDA National Conference 2023 . Cool, calm and collected.
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When an app asks “Are you a robot?”, it’s not actually expecting you to tell the truth. A robot could easily click “No” too. What the app is really doing is quietly watching how you behave for a few seconds to decide if you act like a human.
Think of it like a security guard at a building entrance. The guard isn’t asking because he believes everyone will confess if they’re suspicious. He’s asking so he can observe you while you respond, how you move, how you react, how natural you seem.
The same thing happens on a website.
When you click the little checkbox that says “I’m not a robot”, the system is already looking at things like how your mouse moved to the box. Humans don’t move a mouse in perfectly straight lines. Our hands shake a little. We hesitate. We overshoot slightly and adjust. A program usually moves instantly and perfectly, which looks unnatural.
It also looks at how long you spent on the page before clicking. A human might read the page for a moment, move the cursor around, maybe scroll a bit. A bot arrives and clicks things immediately, because it was programmed to do exactly that.
Another thing it checks is your browsing history with that website. Have you been moving between pages like a normal person? Did you come from another site? Or did you appear out of nowhere and start clicking buttons rapidly?
If everything looks normal, the system quietly lets you through and you never notice anything else.
But if something feels suspicious, maybe the clicks are too fast, the mouse never moved, or the behavior looks mechanical, then the app shows you those little challenges like “Select all the pictures with traffic lights” or “type the letters you see.”
Why pictures?
Because recognizing objects in messy real-world images is still something humans do naturally but automated programs struggle with. A child can instantly recognize a bicycle in a strange photo. For a computer program, that’s surprisingly difficult unless it’s very advanced.
So the question “Are you a robot?” isn’t really a question.
It’s more like a tiny investigation happening in the background.
The system watches how you move, how you click, how you arrived on the page, and whether your behavior feels natural. If it looks like a real person is on the other side of the screen, it lets you pass.
It’s Dr Abimbola Hykmat Ogunbadejo to you now.
God has done it again✅
500 Level MBBS Result = 3 out of 3 Distinctions
Distinction (D) in Community Health & Primary Care
Distinction (D) in Obs & Gynae
Distinction (D) in Paediatrics
100L-500L Result = 5.00CGPA, 11 out of 11 Distinctions.
Mbbs, Unilag.
I HAVE $50K [NGN75,000,000] DEBT STILL LEFT TO PAY AFTER 2 YEARS AND I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO PAY IT.
WHY?
I ALMOST DIED FOUR TIMES
NOT IN SOME POETIC, METAPHORICAL WAY.
I MEAN I STOOD ON THE EDGE, AND SOMETHING, OR SOMEONE YANKED ME BACK EVERY SINGLE TIME.
AFTER THE FOURTH, I STOPPED FIGHTING THE IDEA THAT MAYBE THE UNIVERSE WASN’T DONE WITH ME YET.
BUT THE UNIVERSE HAS A SICK SENSE OF HUMOUR.
IT KEPT ME ALIVE… AND THEN HANDED ME A BILL FOR OVER 100 MILLION NAIRA.
SO NOW I AM JUST REALLY TRYING MY BEST TO DISCOVER HOW BEST I CAN AFFECT THE WORLD POSITIVELY...........
SO HELLO, BEAUTIFUL SOULS!!!.….. HAPPY NEW MONTH!!!... AND HERE IS MY NOVEMBER DUMP....
I AM GRATEFUL THAT YOU STILL ARE READING THIS..... PLEASE STICK TILL THE END.... IT GETS BETTER I PROMISE...
ON MOST DAYS I JUST LURK, LIKE, SCROLL, THEN LOG OFF BECAUSE MY HEAD’S TOO HEAVY TO TALK.
BECAUSE THIS HAS BEEN EATING ME ALIVE FOR YEARS ... IT’S PART OF WHY I HAD TO LEAVE MEDICAL SCHOOL FOR A FEW YEARS...
IT’S WHY DEPRESSION GOT SO LOUD SOME DAYS I COULDN’T LEAVE MY ROOM. I’VE MANAGED TO PAY BACK A FEW THOUSAND DOLLARS ON MY OWN FROM A FEW GIGS OVER A YEAR AND A HALF .
BUT ABOUT 50K DOLLARS IS STILL LEFT TO PAY AND THE REALITY I DO NOT WANT TO ADMIT YET IS THAT I MIGHT TAKE THIS DEBT WITH ME TO 2026...AND THATS WAS MY WAKE UP CALL.... HENCE WHY I AM DOING THIS.....
I THOUGHT CRYPTO TRADING WOULD SAVE ME.....GET ME OUT OF THE TRENCHES LOL. ..,..YOU KNOW THE HUSTLERS MINDSET YEAH.... ANYWAYS I USED TO BE A VERY GOOD TRADER ....AND I HAD A NUMBER OF INVESTORS THAT I TRADED FOR.
BUT ONE IN PARTICULAR STOOD OUT AND HAS BECOME LIKE FAMILY SO THE GUILT IS EATING ME UP ALIVE THAT I ALLOWED MYSELF TO LOSE SO MUCH MONEY THAT HAS AFFECTED THIS MAN AND SO MANY OTHERS SO MUCH....
I AM NO STRANGER TO HOW MUCH UNFORSEEN TRAUMA CAN ALTER ONES LIFE TRAJECTORY BECAUSE HONESTLY I COULD SAY ITS ONE MR LUCKY- OYALUNA-HAKEEM THAT SCAMED ME WHEN I WAS 19 THAT LED ME ONTO THE PATH OF DESPERATION-INDUCED TRADING AND MONEY MAKING....
A DECISION I SEVERELY REGRET.......SO I REALLY REALLY DO WANT TO PAY OFF MY DEBTS AS QUICKLY AS I CAN TO AVOID CAUSING SO MUCH NEGATIVE RIPPLE EFFECTS IN THE LIVES OF THE PEOPLE AFFECTED.......
BECAUSE WHETHER WE LIKE IT OR NOT HUMANITY IS A DELICATE FABRIC OF WOVEN THREADS AND OUR ACTIONS CAN EITHER MAKE OR BREAK EACH OTHER
I STARTED TRADING IN 2019.....IT TOOK UNTIL 2021 TO BECOME PROFITABLE AND TILL 2024 TO BE BACK IN NET LOSS......
ANYWAYS I WAS CARELESS AND I FELL VICTIM TO AVOIDABLE LOSSES.... IT GOT TO A POINT IN MY WINNING STREAK WHERE I STARTED TO THINK I COULDN'T LOSE... IT FELT LIKE I WAS UNTOUCHABLE AND THE INVESTORS LOVED MY CONFIDENCE SO THEY INVESTED MORE
BUT THE MARKET ALWAYS FINDS WAYS TO HUMBLE YOU ... LONG STORY SHORT CRYPTO TRADING DIDN'T SAVE ME.....
IT JUST KEPT DIGGING THE HOLE DEEPER.
I HAD SOLD MY CARS, GADGETS, LANDED PROPERTIES AND ALMOST EVERYTHING I HAD TO PAY OFF SOME PEOPLE IN 2024.......THAT DIDN'T SOLVE EVERYTHING BUT IT REDUCED THE PRESSURE ON ME .....
WHEN IT ALL ESCALATED IN SEPTEMBER 2024.... I GAVE MYSELF TILL NOV 30, 2025 TO RECOVER EVERYTHING I LOST FROM TRADING AND THAT DEADLINE JUST PASSED WITH THE LAST MONTH.
SINCE THE DEADLINE I HAS PASSED .... I’M FINALLY ACCEPTING THAT THE CRYPTO TRADING PATH IS CLOSED .......
WORTHY OF NOTE THAT THE MOMENT I SAID “I’M DONE" OUT LOUD ....SOMETHING CRACKED OPEN INSIDE MY CHEST.
FOR THE FIRST TIME IN YEARS, I WOKE UP EXCITED.
NOT FOR CHARTS. NOT FOR 100X LEVERAGE.
BUT FOR A PENCIL... SEEING PEOPLE EYES LIT UP WHEN I SKETCHED THEM HEALED A PART OF ME. THAT WAS WHEN I REMEMBERED WHO I WAS BEFORE THE DEBT
THE KID WHO FINISHED TOP OF HIS SET IN SECONDARY SCHOOL WITHOUT OPENING A BOOK TWICE.
THE 400-LEVEL MEDICAL STUDENT WHO COASTED ON RAW TALENT AND NEVER LEARNED HOW TO ACTUALLY FIGHT FOR SOMETHING.
THE GUY WHO COULD DRAW YOUR SOUL ON PAPER IN 10-60 MINUTES FLAT.
I’M IN MY LATE MID TWENTIES NOW, DEGREE-LESS, BROKE, AND TERRIFYINGLY ALIVE.
AND I’M ASKING, NO, I’M BEGGING THE WORLD FOR ONE LAST SAVE.
I NEED THIS DEBT GONE SO I CAN BREATHE AGAIN.
SO DEPRESSION STOPS WINNING.
SO I CAN FINISH MEDICINE [BDS SPECIFICALLY], OR NOT, BUT AT LEAST CHOOSE MY LIFE INSTEAD OF HAVING IT CHOSEN BY DEBT
I’M EXCITED AGAIN ABOUT..... SUNRISE, MUSIC,FLOWERS,RAIN,WIND ..........LIFE!!!
I CAN EVEN GENUINELY SMILE AGAIN WITHOUT FEELING GUILTY......... AND I AM GRATEFUL FOR THESE LITTLE THINGS.... AND I WOULD LIKE TO PROTECT IT BECAUSE I GENUINELY LOVE THE PERSON I AM WHEN I AM NOT OVERWHELMED BY DEBT........ HE NEEDS TO REDEEM HIMSELF IN THE EYES OF EVERYONE HE HAS HURT SO FAR.....
HOWEVER ALL THE EGO DEATH, LOVE, AND LIGHT I CURRENTLY FEEL IS ALL BECAUSE OF ART..I STARTED TO SKETCH PEOPLE TO FUNDRAISE FOR AN OUTREACH TO THE SLUMS AND PAY FOR A MEDICAL BILL
BUT I NOW KNOW EXACTLY WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY, GIVES ME HOPE AND MAKES ME EXCITED TO WAKE UP ANOTHER DAY..... THE INTERSECTION BETWEEN ART AND COMMUNITY SERVICE IS WHERE MY HAPPINESSS IS
HAVING TRIED A LOT OF GIGS THAT I HAVE FOUND NO FULFILMENT BUT A MEANS TO A STIPEND IN..... I HAVE CONCLUDED THAT IN ALL HONESTY....
HAVING THIS WEIGHT OFF MY BACK WOULD HELP ME BREATHE AGAIN IN TURN ENABLE ME TO GET BACK TO BEING A HIGH FUNCTIONING MEMBER OF SOCIETY THAT CAN CONTRIBUTE IMMENSELY TO MAKING POSITIVE IMPACT.
I AM VERY TALENTED AND VERY RESOURCEFUL BUT DEPRESSION HAS EATEN AWAY AT MY CORE AND I DO NOT LIKE THE PERSON I AM BECOMING SO THIS IS MY CRY OUT TO THE WORLD TO PLEASE HELP ME RECLAIM MY SOUL!!!! AND GET MY LIFE BACK ON TRACK FASTER....
I AM SCARED A MISTAKE I MADE WHEN I WAS 19 HAS DRAGGED ON TO MY LATE 20S AND THE REST MIGHT PROBABLY END UP BEING DEDICATED TO DEBT REPAYMENT ....... I HAVE LOST WAY TOO MUCH TIME
HAVING TO DROP OUT OF MEDICAL SCHOOL IN 400LVL...
I HAVE APPLIED FOR REINSTATEMENT BUT THERE IS THE POSSIBILITY I MIGHT NOT BE ACCEPTED TO GO BACK AFTER LEAVING SO ABRUPTLY SO I HAVE WRITTEN JUPEB AND CAME OUT TOP 10 OUT OF THOUSANDS OF APPLICANTS
I HAVE A TRACK RECORD OF BEING ABLE TO EASILY EXCEL ABOVE MY PEERS WITH MINIMAL EFFORT EVER SINCE PRIMARY , SECONDARY SCH DAYS AND EVEN IN MEDICAL SCHOOL I COULD EASILY PASS WITH MINIMAL EFFORT.....
SO THE PAST FEW YEARS OF MY LIFE HAS FELT LIKE AN UNENDING HORROR CUTSCENE BECAUSE I COULD NEVER BREAK THAT THRESHOLD CONSCIOUSLY ANYMORE.....
I HAVE DONE ALL SORTS OF JOBS AND TAKEN ALL SORTS OF GIGS AND I AM STILL IN NO WHERE CLOSE TO MY GOAL
![shadowlite_'s tweet photo. I HAVE $50K [NGN75,000,000] DEBT STILL LEFT TO PAY AFTER 2 YEARS AND I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO PAY IT.
WHY?
I ALMOST DIED FOUR TIMES
NOT IN SOME POETIC, METAPHORICAL WAY.
I MEAN I STOOD ON THE EDGE, AND SOMETHING, OR SOMEONE YANKED ME BACK EVERY SINGLE TIME.
AFTER THE FOURTH, I STOPPED FIGHTING THE IDEA THAT MAYBE THE UNIVERSE WASN’T DONE WITH ME YET.
BUT THE UNIVERSE HAS A SICK SENSE OF HUMOUR.
IT KEPT ME ALIVE… AND THEN HANDED ME A BILL FOR OVER 100 MILLION NAIRA.
SO NOW I AM JUST REALLY TRYING MY BEST TO DISCOVER HOW BEST I CAN AFFECT THE WORLD POSITIVELY...........
SO HELLO, BEAUTIFUL SOULS!!!.….. HAPPY NEW MONTH!!!... AND HERE IS MY NOVEMBER DUMP....
I AM GRATEFUL THAT YOU STILL ARE READING THIS..... PLEASE STICK TILL THE END.... IT GETS BETTER I PROMISE...
ON MOST DAYS I JUST LURK, LIKE, SCROLL, THEN LOG OFF BECAUSE MY HEAD’S TOO HEAVY TO TALK.
BECAUSE THIS HAS BEEN EATING ME ALIVE FOR YEARS ... IT’S PART OF WHY I HAD TO LEAVE MEDICAL SCHOOL FOR A FEW YEARS...
IT’S WHY DEPRESSION GOT SO LOUD SOME DAYS I COULDN’T LEAVE MY ROOM. I’VE MANAGED TO PAY BACK A FEW THOUSAND DOLLARS ON MY OWN FROM A FEW GIGS OVER A YEAR AND A HALF .
BUT ABOUT 50K DOLLARS IS STILL LEFT TO PAY AND THE REALITY I DO NOT WANT TO ADMIT YET IS THAT I MIGHT TAKE THIS DEBT WITH ME TO 2026...AND THATS WAS MY WAKE UP CALL.... HENCE WHY I AM DOING THIS.....
I THOUGHT CRYPTO TRADING WOULD SAVE ME.....GET ME OUT OF THE TRENCHES LOL. ..,..YOU KNOW THE HUSTLERS MINDSET YEAH.... ANYWAYS I USED TO BE A VERY GOOD TRADER ....AND I HAD A NUMBER OF INVESTORS THAT I TRADED FOR.
BUT ONE IN PARTICULAR STOOD OUT AND HAS BECOME LIKE FAMILY SO THE GUILT IS EATING ME UP ALIVE THAT I ALLOWED MYSELF TO LOSE SO MUCH MONEY THAT HAS AFFECTED THIS MAN AND SO MANY OTHERS SO MUCH....
I AM NO STRANGER TO HOW MUCH UNFORSEEN TRAUMA CAN ALTER ONES LIFE TRAJECTORY BECAUSE HONESTLY I COULD SAY ITS ONE MR LUCKY- OYALUNA-HAKEEM THAT SCAMED ME WHEN I WAS 19 THAT LED ME ONTO THE PATH OF DESPERATION-INDUCED TRADING AND MONEY MAKING....
A DECISION I SEVERELY REGRET.......SO I REALLY REALLY DO WANT TO PAY OFF MY DEBTS AS QUICKLY AS I CAN TO AVOID CAUSING SO MUCH NEGATIVE RIPPLE EFFECTS IN THE LIVES OF THE PEOPLE AFFECTED.......
BECAUSE WHETHER WE LIKE IT OR NOT HUMANITY IS A DELICATE FABRIC OF WOVEN THREADS AND OUR ACTIONS CAN EITHER MAKE OR BREAK EACH OTHER
I STARTED TRADING IN 2019.....IT TOOK UNTIL 2021 TO BECOME PROFITABLE AND TILL 2024 TO BE BACK IN NET LOSS......
ANYWAYS I WAS CARELESS AND I FELL VICTIM TO AVOIDABLE LOSSES.... IT GOT TO A POINT IN MY WINNING STREAK WHERE I STARTED TO THINK I COULDN'T LOSE... IT FELT LIKE I WAS UNTOUCHABLE AND THE INVESTORS LOVED MY CONFIDENCE SO THEY INVESTED MORE
BUT THE MARKET ALWAYS FINDS WAYS TO HUMBLE YOU ... LONG STORY SHORT CRYPTO TRADING DIDN'T SAVE ME.....
IT JUST KEPT DIGGING THE HOLE DEEPER.
I HAD SOLD MY CARS, GADGETS, LANDED PROPERTIES AND ALMOST EVERYTHING I HAD TO PAY OFF SOME PEOPLE IN 2024.......THAT DIDN'T SOLVE EVERYTHING BUT IT REDUCED THE PRESSURE ON ME .....
WHEN IT ALL ESCALATED IN SEPTEMBER 2024.... I GAVE MYSELF TILL NOV 30, 2025 TO RECOVER EVERYTHING I LOST FROM TRADING AND THAT DEADLINE JUST PASSED WITH THE LAST MONTH.
SINCE THE DEADLINE I HAS PASSED .... I’M FINALLY ACCEPTING THAT THE CRYPTO TRADING PATH IS CLOSED .......
WORTHY OF NOTE THAT THE MOMENT I SAID “I’M DONE" OUT LOUD ....SOMETHING CRACKED OPEN INSIDE MY CHEST.
FOR THE FIRST TIME IN YEARS, I WOKE UP EXCITED.
NOT FOR CHARTS. NOT FOR 100X LEVERAGE.
BUT FOR A PENCIL... SEEING PEOPLE EYES LIT UP WHEN I SKETCHED THEM HEALED A PART OF ME. THAT WAS WHEN I REMEMBERED WHO I WAS BEFORE THE DEBT
THE KID WHO FINISHED TOP OF HIS SET IN SECONDARY SCHOOL WITHOUT OPENING A BOOK TWICE.
THE 400-LEVEL MEDICAL STUDENT WHO COASTED ON RAW TALENT AND NEVER LEARNED HOW TO ACTUALLY FIGHT FOR SOMETHING.
THE GUY WHO COULD DRAW YOUR SOUL ON PAPER IN 10-60 MINUTES FLAT.
I’M IN MY LATE MID TWENTIES NOW, DEGREE-LESS, BROKE, AND TERRIFYINGLY ALIVE.
AND I’M ASKING, NO, I’M BEGGING THE WORLD FOR ONE LAST SAVE.
I NEED THIS DEBT GONE SO I CAN BREATHE AGAIN.
SO DEPRESSION STOPS WINNING.
SO I CAN FINISH MEDICINE [BDS SPECIFICALLY], OR NOT, BUT AT LEAST CHOOSE MY LIFE INSTEAD OF HAVING IT CHOSEN BY DEBT
I’M EXCITED AGAIN ABOUT..... SUNRISE, MUSIC,FLOWERS,RAIN,WIND ..........LIFE!!!
I CAN EVEN GENUINELY SMILE AGAIN WITHOUT FEELING GUILTY......... AND I AM GRATEFUL FOR THESE LITTLE THINGS.... AND I WOULD LIKE TO PROTECT IT BECAUSE I GENUINELY LOVE THE PERSON I AM WHEN I AM NOT OVERWHELMED BY DEBT........ HE NEEDS TO REDEEM HIMSELF IN THE EYES OF EVERYONE HE HAS HURT SO FAR.....
HOWEVER ALL THE EGO DEATH, LOVE, AND LIGHT I CURRENTLY FEEL IS ALL BECAUSE OF ART..I STARTED TO SKETCH PEOPLE TO FUNDRAISE FOR AN OUTREACH TO THE SLUMS AND PAY FOR A MEDICAL BILL
BUT I NOW KNOW EXACTLY WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY, GIVES ME HOPE AND MAKES ME EXCITED TO WAKE UP ANOTHER DAY..... THE INTERSECTION BETWEEN ART AND COMMUNITY SERVICE IS WHERE MY HAPPINESSS IS
HAVING TRIED A LOT OF GIGS THAT I HAVE FOUND NO FULFILMENT BUT A MEANS TO A STIPEND IN..... I HAVE CONCLUDED THAT IN ALL HONESTY....
HAVING THIS WEIGHT OFF MY BACK WOULD HELP ME BREATHE AGAIN IN TURN ENABLE ME TO GET BACK TO BEING A HIGH FUNCTIONING MEMBER OF SOCIETY THAT CAN CONTRIBUTE IMMENSELY TO MAKING POSITIVE IMPACT.
I AM VERY TALENTED AND VERY RESOURCEFUL BUT DEPRESSION HAS EATEN AWAY AT MY CORE AND I DO NOT LIKE THE PERSON I AM BECOMING SO THIS IS MY CRY OUT TO THE WORLD TO PLEASE HELP ME RECLAIM MY SOUL!!!! AND GET MY LIFE BACK ON TRACK FASTER....
I AM SCARED A MISTAKE I MADE WHEN I WAS 19 HAS DRAGGED ON TO MY LATE 20S AND THE REST MIGHT PROBABLY END UP BEING DEDICATED TO DEBT REPAYMENT ....... I HAVE LOST WAY TOO MUCH TIME
HAVING TO DROP OUT OF MEDICAL SCHOOL IN 400LVL...
I HAVE APPLIED FOR REINSTATEMENT BUT THERE IS THE POSSIBILITY I MIGHT NOT BE ACCEPTED TO GO BACK AFTER LEAVING SO ABRUPTLY SO I HAVE WRITTEN JUPEB AND CAME OUT TOP 10 OUT OF THOUSANDS OF APPLICANTS
I HAVE A TRACK RECORD OF BEING ABLE TO EASILY EXCEL ABOVE MY PEERS WITH MINIMAL EFFORT EVER SINCE PRIMARY , SECONDARY SCH DAYS AND EVEN IN MEDICAL SCHOOL I COULD EASILY PASS WITH MINIMAL EFFORT.....
SO THE PAST FEW YEARS OF MY LIFE HAS FELT LIKE AN UNENDING HORROR CUTSCENE BECAUSE I COULD NEVER BREAK THAT THRESHOLD CONSCIOUSLY ANYMORE.....
I HAVE DONE ALL SORTS OF JOBS AND TAKEN ALL SORTS OF GIGS AND I AM STILL IN NO WHERE CLOSE TO MY GOAL](https://pbs.twimg.com/media/G7Pv7UKWAAIpGa6.jpg)
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