nox forty

[nox forty @XonDominique]

so i view the fake accounts as a confirmation of my suspicions and also a sign that this relationship wants to get real.
today another mock profile followed me on insta. this time my other profile. it's possible that they're just a fan account. that's what i thought initially

[nox forty @XonDominique]

in general it became obvious that scammers seek out emotional comments and target these profiles in hopes to get a reaction. so the takeaway is that my comments do stand out and draw attention and display emotional involvement. exactly the mechanism i suspected worked on mile

[nox forty @XonDominique]

which reminds me that the fake fb account finally started asking for stuff and then i blocked him. but his opening line was: it seems you know me very well. idk where he got that idea from because i'd say my fb comments are rather tame. i found it peculiar

[nox forty @XonDominique]

so i'll be digging into that pile for both of us and running various potential interactions to see how things feel. they say our connection could be explosive so it's best done remotely at least initially.

[nox forty @XonDominique]

from what i can sense, mile's needs for intensity are not met either. astrology says they're buried beneath a pile of sensitivities and fears that he first has to deal with before he can enjoy the depths. his first choice is to avoid facing the issues but the time has come

[nox forty @XonDominique]

astrology doesn't lie. my emotional landscape is extreme. it's been mostly dormant thus far. makes sense, it's not kids' play. but now it's being awakened and is seeking to interact. mile seems to be able to provide exactly what i need. it makes me feel alive

[nox forty @XonDominique]

what is particularly amusing, nihad, is that your supposed moon on algol forms the same pattern. the only thing missing is the regulus venus. but even without it, intensity is over the top. so if it feels like you're the son he never had, that might be the reason why

[nox forty @XonDominique]

now that i've read about it, i think our venus, moon, pluto synastry pattern is the center piece of our interaction. we've got other things going on as well. you have a cardinal grand cross of your own of your sun, jupiter, saturn, and uranus and i've got planets on top of it

[nox forty @XonDominique]

hm, reading back, it looks like the hint at an accident was not wasted. it's right after that i made that gesture and commanded the bad influence to go away. i'm kinda hazy today. my normal consciousness is not working so i didn't realize it until now.

[nox forty @XonDominique]

i just can't help but notice that exactly the kitten i spent a long time petting just a day or two prior, meaning i invested a lot of my energy in, is the one to pass away.

[nox forty @XonDominique]

she recently noticed i also yawn after that. so i release the pain i guess. our boy cat came limping yesterday so i decided to kiss his paw. he started purring immediately and the limp was gone shortly after

[nox forty @XonDominique]

i'm wondering if someone's deliberately done something negative to me or i'm just prone to absorbing people's bad energy. my sis tells me i can take away the pain with a few kisses if something hurts her. i thought she was joking initially. she assured me the pain goes away

[nox forty @XonDominique]

it's rather odd i did it in the car a few minutes before the potential accident.
i was massaging my right foot yesterday and noticed i yawned a lot and tears started flowing. that's how bad energy is released from the body.

[nox forty @XonDominique]

i feel this pressing idea, just the way i feel pressure from people, like mancho for example - for accidents. i have to constantly fight off this energy. i did feel it today. i even tried a new method of keeping it at bay. 🫸 this is a powerful gesture to make things stop

[nox forty @XonDominique]

i can't escape the feeling my kittens get sacrificed so i get off the hook. it struck me the very first time it happened. the first kitten got hit by a car right on my birthday, maybe even the exact hour. the ones i love the most are the ones to go

[nox forty @XonDominique]

very accident prone day. narrowly escaped a head on collision. just a second and i could not be writing now. i should've noticed the hint at the fork of the road. managed to hit my head. got tension headache from the heavy packages. didn't run over pedestrians by a miracle

[nox forty @XonDominique]

i'm very good at petting cats. i know how to give a cat full satisfaction. our indoor prince is in love with me because of that although sis is his favorite human

[nox forty @XonDominique]

just give me some time. we lost one of our outdoor kittens suddenly today and we're depressed. possibly she got poisoned. we'll never know. i'm glad at least i spent a lot of time petting her the other day. she was so pleased, she bragged to the others and they came for pets too

[nox forty @XonDominique]

i think i sense a hint that he needs his daily fix of intensity too and doesn't take it lightly that i'm refraining from sharing. there's a lot to dig in here so there'd be plenty to share

[nox forty @XonDominique]

i felt i needed a few days to regenerate after being emotionally drained by thinking about and actually feeling the potential intensity of our interaction. it was deeply satisfying but left me exhausted and raw