"You're carrying both your own emotions and the weight of their inability to carry theirs"
You must be exhausted. How tiring it is to feel responsible for everyone else's emotions.
Don't allow them to continue the cycle in you that you have tried so hard to break.
It hurt so much because it was real.
Love is hope. It hurts to hope and it hurts to love, yet we still do.
"Love isn't something that weak people do. Being a romantic takes a hell of a lot of hope"
You were neglected, and your soul is starving. You had to learn to settle for less, to settle for crumbs. You were hungry, and you deserve more than just scraps, u deserve the world.
You are allowed to eat as much as you need. So eat up, ill make as much as you want my baby.
You are not selfish for needing more, you are just aware of what's missing, that doesnt make you ungrateful. That doesnt make you needy. Maybe you do need more, but that's because you weren't given enough as a child.
It makes sense while you feel so empty, why it never feels like enough, but that isn't because you are too much. It isn't your fault, its just the outcome of your circumstances.
I know it's scary, but I didn't expect perfection out of you. I just wanted you to try to face the fear. I wanted to hold you. I wanted to see you. I was trying to help you. I just wanted to love you, but you didn't let me. I was ready for you, but you weren't ready to carry it.
I built a home for you inside of me. I made it so warm, so comfortable, and so cozy for you. I was standing by the door, waiting for you to come in, but you never did. The fire went out, the house got cold, and my heart was abandoned.