She's a celebrity. Way more famous than I am. We talked and she was nice, but there were obvious clues that she was emotionally unavailable.
(Can't share the exact details in case she sees this but take my word for it)
So.. I obviously withdrew and kept and will still keep my distance till she approaches aka gives me the green light. But honestly? I am not over that crush not one bit.
Everytime I saw her my heart hurt a little. Her smile lowkey made me happy and sad cuz I wish I was the reason she smiled. Also, I wish she smiled at me.
For what a year now? She has been no question about it the most beautiful woman on Earth in my eyes. Not one other woman competes, celebrity or not. I have dreams of her here in America aka +12,000 km away.
I don't watch any of her stuff anymore. I boycott her movies/series/photoshoots/you name it. If a reel of hers pops up I immediately scroll past. I limit my interactions with her content to not be triggered by that unexplainebly intense crush. To not be hurt.
I do not know if we'll ever end up together and honestly? Highly highly unlikely. I don't even know if I'll like her if we talked talked. But if we don't end up together, I hope I feel that strong an attraction towards my potential partner.
Thank you, Unknown to Readers Lady.
Why? Cuz thanks to you, I now know I still feel things like these after everything I went through, and I went through horrible things.
وطبعاً، بتمنالها كل الخير اللي فالدنيا معايا ولا مع غيري ووالله كتبت الكلام ده وانا عايز ادمع.