It's not that I haven't considered or attempted for a month. I've even planned out my death several times in the past weeks. But they're all faulty and I just make them when I'm pissed.
I just haven't done anything that would solidify my fate.
TW // sh, suicide
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One month free of panic attacks and suicide attempts that would actually work.
The last two were how I discovered my skin condition. I would have succeeded if I didn't mind itchiness.
Baby steps <3
User:
Installed a new lock without a key, secured a water supply, and put my laptop outside.
I can't handle classes anymore. I'm dedicating my time to things that matter before I off myself from the stress.
Let's hope I don't get killed.
User:
I was thinking about posting a picture but I don't have my hair down and censoring my face makes it look terrifying
Giving me very much [REDACTED] chan vibes
User:
Things like careers, money, and other concepts that derive from a capitalist state never made sense to me; still expecting me to participate is equally dumb.
I'm not going to pursue the dreams promised by the same system that I'm working against.
User:
Sometimes I'm asked, "What do you want the most in life?"
I'm not sure, but the status I want the most right now is a true lover, a cozy 2-roomed house, and absolute anarchy.
Throw in the death of chomos and I'm satisfied for eternity. Not even schooling.
TW // mentions of CSA
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"WhY dOn'T yOu tAlK tO uS?" Two of my molesters are in this goddamn car of course I don't want to be social with y'all
STFU and let me blast my ears in peace
- None of my relatives believe me about anything (my obvious insanity, my skin condition, trauma, etc.). Except my grandma, she thinks it's reasonable. Not the mental stuff tho
I'd say it's been pretty nice. For me at least, it can only go upwards unless I die lol
- I'm fully getting into programming. No turning back over here now... and it's gonna be great for the upcoming account 😏
- Those rabbit mask people disbanded so I'll just do it myself or make a discord to carry out what they (understandably) couldn't handle.