That future was a lie wasn't it,
you were the only person I've managed to trust and listen, who heard me, yet
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I found myself deleting these pictures of you, with shaky hands covered in blood and tears.
🩺ah we were wrong, thinking anything could change with a person? I told you.
No one's special after all, thinking we'd finally be safe, I can't stop thinking of bad things..and no one will ever actually care about you, you're so easily unlovable...how I told you so.
imagine being a dead animal on the side of the road just laying there decaying and people in cars just keep passing you and passing you and passing you and passing you and
dissociating rly hard feels crazy because you can start to feel like ur time jumping. i look at the clock once and it's 7:15 PM & the next time i look it'll be 7:45 PM but it only felt like it had been 2 minutes at most
Just remembered something kinda painful and tragic.
When systems/plurals/multiples/collectives die, there's kind of a similar issue to trans folks being remembered by our deadnames.
Most people are only gonna remember the host or most-common fronter etc, huh?
others being triggered 2 front during difficult situations is like Ok this is Useful . sucks but also makes sense cuz thats like ur job or wtv.
what actually sucks way more imo is when someones triggered to front during happy fun situations .
Sometimes I really want to explain to my close friends that I have DID so they understand why I act the way I do and so they aren’t thrown off when I act extremely out of character sometimes but I hate telling people I have any sort of disorder and I don’t trust most people.