spinnyventually

@spinnyternally alt | ⚠️ suggestive art / vent but like im probably chill

[spinnyventually @Zenith0peration]

they would not fucking do that but the idea interested me

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i want to post mirrormellia but everytime i draw it turns into

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i wanted to celebrate with my friends

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it was supposed to be a happy day

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i dont know how much longer i can go on, eventually ill feel even more empty than ive already been before

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reality has always been hell
atleast everyone is proud of me and happy for me here
im not just a useless stupid child

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whenever i feel true happiness for once something bad just immediately happens right after, why is it like this??? WHY?????

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cant sleep

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this ones scrapped i got a cooler one

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im doing artistic engineering to draw him as fruity as possible

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this thought process cycles through my head like 5 times a week

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fantasizing abt death again but then snapped out of it cause i have alot of camellia to draw

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ive had beef with this song the entire time because of how hard this was to make
now i might actually draw smth with this

[Emil @BlueberryCheez3]

The best way I can describe it is like an internal cringe

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scheduled a very important exciting post (giggles and kicks my feet)

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idk what to do with this

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im so scared

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but i cant... its still waiting for me...

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i dont feel like an adult or even an actual person and this house is full of strangers who pretend to know me. got told "if you went back to school you would have more friends to invite to your birthday" and i just want to die so bad

[spinny @spinnyternally]

nothing is real