taking July 13 - 19th off for myself, I want to actually spend it focusing on my mental health and art.
I need more time for myself to re assert myself regardless of what or who, even self doubts or others doubts, and ontop of that just focus on practicing drawing & etc.
@ashlyninstereo did you push it using the circle plastic? if you did it's better without it and just keep the bottle on somewhere firm so you can press the button on the plastic mini table part to pop down the little stone! (corrected to be accurate.)
I still low-key feel bad for not being aware about this because it more than likely affected a lot of relationships. I got HRT prescribed July 2021 coincidentally enough and for sure it affected me and some relationships.
I set alarms in place to hold myself accountable properly
Also my hormone blocker for my HRT I've been taking has been always triggering some effects like; Memory Fog, Mood Swings, Anxiety, Depression, Fatigue, Drowsiness, and Migraines.
I'll be switching to taking it at night so it doesn't get in the way of streams or anything else.
Excuse the late night posts. Just a heads up to other transgender people to stay on top of the effects.
or if you know someone who is the 10% prone to being affected by it.
Good night! And excuse me as I get everything re-arranged for improvements. I deeply appreciate you all!
Also my hormone blocker for my HRT I've been taking has been always triggering some effects like; Memory Fog, Mood Swings, Anxiety, Depression, Fatigue, Drowsiness, and Migraines.
I'll be switching to taking it at night so it doesn't get in the way of streams or anything else.
Aside from that, I'm confident I'll finish setting up self management completely this week.
Regular streams next week.
Excuse me during the shift in my behavioral changes and patterns even further to someone complete.
Low-key got work 5 life clashing, I'd rather stay on top!
Aside from that, realizing a lot now how bad the mental health care system was and still sorta is.
Low-key, the auditory, sensory, and physical issues were painful growing up trying to partially self discipline myself out of. Now I can finally fully name it and manage it away.
I lost so many opportunities not knowing this... All the headaches I felt while fighting to win against some traits were real. I felt so much pain in my head rewriting some mental patterns.
I need more time alone to figure out ways to subdue it more, so I can live freely.
You're not crazy, if you relate to what I mentioned, you're not neurotypical...
You're neuro divergent. You have to manage and regulate yourself more than others, that requires discipline. Masking discipline doesn't work.
Walk the walk.
I lost so many opportunities not knowing this... All the headaches I felt while fighting to win against some traits were real. I felt so much pain in my head rewriting some mental patterns.
I need more time alone to figure out ways to subdue it more, so I can live freely.
Recently learned ADHD does make it hard to converse with others by just figuring out when.
Also it does make it harder to let go of people because of extra emotional attachment making it more painful. So we're clingy.
On top of that overworking and over burdening to juggle too.
Then with autism, the poor mental understanding of social cues, poor conversations, difficulty forming relationships, difficulty making or keeping conversation, limited or delayed speech, unusual tone/rhythm in speech.
Strong distress if routine is gone.
All of this hits hard.
sometimes I just write things to my head demons and my doubts just to clear that out when I just stare at the page + can't even doodle or practice when I'm like that. this helps a lot.