olive: is relapsing

24| vegan| she/her| blm| tw: vent acct| 18+| no gore| nd/ adhd|

[olive: is relapsing @_0lbs]

unpinning when i lose 20lbs🤠

[olive: is relapsing @_0lbs]

thinking about making a new ed account so I can actually just keep my followers small + manage friendships here better but I like my @ and have had this account since high school and id be so sad to let it go

[olive: is relapsing @_0lbs]

staring at my boyfriend while he eats the most delicious looking sandwich, im so jealous

[olive: is relapsing @_0lbs]

also canned tuna

[olive: is relapsing @_0lbs]

I love being vegan and i’ll never not be vegan, but man do I miss egg whites

[olive: is relapsing @_0lbs]

42 hours into my fast and i’m so tempted to break it, my stomach hurts and has been growling all day plus I have no energy to work out but im so scared breaking it will trigger a binge

[olive: is relapsing @_0lbs]

ive decided to stop taking one of my meds, they’ve been making me so mentally stable but my god they’ve destroyed my metabolism + made me gain so much weight in the year i’ve been taking it.

[olive: is relapsing @_0lbs]

breaking my three year binge

[olive: is relapsing @_0lbs]

38 hours into my fast and the end seems so far away

[olive: is relapsing @_0lbs]

I can’t believe how far I let myself go

[olive: is relapsing @_0lbs]

spent most of last night looking at pictures of myself from my lowest weight, im so far from it but I think if I really try I can get back there in the next 3 months

[olive: is relapsing @_0lbs]

though i’m not sure how well i’ll be able to work out while fasting so much?

[olive: is relapsing @_0lbs]

I won’t spend this summer hiding in baggy clothes, i’ll lose the weight and be able to enjoy myself for once

[olive: is relapsing @_0lbs]

I have a festival to go to at the end of june and i’m hoping to fast at least 30 days before then, I need a substantial weight loss

[olive: is relapsing @_0lbs]

34 hours into a fast and all I can think about is my end goal but also how fucking hungry I am

[olive: is relapsing @_0lbs]

I miss it here

[olive: is relapsing @_0lbs]

starting the abc diet tomorrow, send me your fav low calorie meals so I can plan ahead 🥰

[olive: is relapsing @_0lbs]

my period cravings are really killing me

[olive: is relapsing @_0lbs]

thinking and deleting this account

[olive: is relapsing @_0lbs]

maybe i’ll purge what I ate today and then start a fast