You lost everything. And everyone. There is no forgiving you. You chose... I chose.
What now? Should I, the same man, Should I lose everything and everyone, there's to be enough left inside so that I do not become you?
I do not know.
But I have hope.
There's nothing in my heart, I don't feel pain any longer, this hole has opened up by this world of hell, I only had pain inside here before, but really what was the meaning in that, so I abandoned it all.
I also learned to forgive myself. I’ve learned a lot while I was hurting. Even though I’ve seen the worst version of me this year, I still learned to accept and appreciate myself. This may be the most painful year for me, but at least I survived and learned a lot.
Nobody knows how much I suffered this year. I've seen the most vulnerable version of me, and I realized that it took everything in me to survive my silent battles. I almost gave up and almost lost myself because I was hurting a lot.
Nobody really knows how many times I pulled myself together just to survive this year. And for that, I am so proud of myself for being here. I've seen the saddest version of me, the most wasted and devastated, but despite that, I’ve learned that I am a strong person.