I had the worst dream that I was helping the doctors pin my son down to do a test while he screamed and cried looked me in my eyes & begged me to make them stop. When it was over he wouldn’t look at me. I woke up thankful it was a dream until I remembered that happened yesterday
You know how hard it is to help a doctor pin your child down so they can hurt them to run test ? They don’t know that this test is necessary to help them with their quality of life, all they know is my mommy is helping these people hurt me and it hurts. He must feel so betrayed.
You know how they say God gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers? That’s bullshit. My son is 6. He’s been cut open twice, had a million procedures, a million tests and yesterday he cried to me that he just wants to be normal. What do I say to that?
He said, “how come none of my friends have ever had to do any of the stuff I have to? I’m the only one that’s ever had surgery and MRIs, they’ve never had ultrasounds or X-rays, why am I different? Why can’t I be normal like them? I’m tired. It hurts” wtf do I say to that??
The most frustrating thing is hearing these doctors tell me how unusual and perplexing my son’s case is and how they have no idea wtf is going on.running test after test and since that’s not helping them at all now they have to do more invasive procedures to try to figure it out.
I think I got food poisoning from this hospital’s cafeteria food 😭 I’m over here throwing up and shaking and I’m trynna hold myself together for when the doctors come in trying to talk to me about my son 😭