@shagbark_hick The “call” is a moment to moment attunement. It doesn’t feel like a story or grand scheme. I don’t imagine Jesus playing his story with some kind of messianic vision. It was just moment to moment surrender to what is true right now
It’s been nice to look into immediate experience and ask: “what is *not* here?” And find nothing; stranger still to ask “So what then *is* here?” And find another kind of nothing: alive, shiny, lovely, fast as lightning and still
@frideswyth I love this kind of experience where you can feel the real possibility of 24/7 simultaneous disintegration & integration. And it’s simply in the innate intelligence of pure body-senses. Nothing to manage! So freeing 🤗
@BeraHugs People kept speaking from their experience assuming it was also a model of mine and it drove me nuts; and then I noticed I was doing the same when I dished out my advice to them, but nobody seemd to know each other or themselves and so the only viable thing is to follow the heart
@BeraHugs When I realised all these points of reference were being simulated as if they are “out there” but actually completely within the confines of my skull it was game over for the super-ego
I'm in some kind of hell realm I could intellectualise as a freeze state coupled with insight into the actual fact of non-doership which I would not really wish upon anyone
I try to think of what is best to do & all it does is send my mind into a circle. I really don’t know. Nothing is right, and nothing is changing. Is there a way to live without relying on my mind to formulate an answer?
@lapislagoons It's really important to trust your instincts! For me, seeing clearly what unconscious "rules" I'm attached to and why has cleared that up a lot.
You can really paint whatever you want & that's what everyone wants to see anyway :P