i lied.
i love nasty kissing.
i’m obsessive.
what’s mine is mine.
i love eye contact.
i only want you.
i hate avoidants.
i’m shy sometimes.
i love physical touch.
i overthink a lot.
i love getting called baby.
i get jealous sometimes.
i love hard
want you to MYSELF.
I want romance. I want intimacy. I want the 3am love making. I want consistency. I want loyalty. I want the random looks of admiration. I want to know you're just for me. I want date nights and flowers. I want reassurance. I want priority. I want love that's pure and true.
A narcissist doesn’t love you. They love your access. They love your energy, your empathy, your effort — but they don’t value it. They study you, mirror you, charm you… all just to get what they want. To them, people aren’t people — they’re supply. A means to feel important. A backup plan. A safe haven for when life humbles them and they need a place to hide.
They’ll cry about childhood wounds and tell you their trauma made them this way — but when you offer them healing, support, or therapy? They resist. Because healing would mean taking accountability, and narcissists fear accountability. They live in cycles of chaos and blame. They know exactly what they're doing — they just don’t care enough to change it.
You can pour every ounce of love, compassion, and loyalty into them… and they will still betray you behind your back, all while blaming you for their mess. They'll manipulate your emotions, invalidate your feelings, then gaslight you when you try to hold them accountable. They are never satisfied, because deep down they’re not seeking love — they’re seeking control.
Being with a narcissist is like drowning while they watch you and ask why you’re not smiling. It’s mentally exhausting, emotionally destructive, and spiritually draining. And when you're finally empty? They'll act like you're the crazy one for needing to be refilled.
So if you’re dealing with one, hear this loud and clear: you can’t fix them. You can’t save them. You owe yourself freedom, peace, and healing. Walk away before you forget who you are trying to prove your worth to someone who doesn't even know how to love.
Protect your heart. Reclaim your power. You deserve real love, not manipulation masked as connection.
I CANNOT wait to experience true love w/o trust & commitment issues & 3rd party situations & lack of integrity & sneaky stuff behind my back & not having to beg to be loved & treated right & heard & seen & reciprocation is mutual & Im loved “correctly” the first time around.🥰
Fuck words. How a person moves, treats you, talks to you etc.. genuinely tells how they value you as a person. Don’t ignore the signs, take it as face value.