i'm coming to realize that the life i sold my soul away for is long gone with no hope of going back to how things used to be and i'll never be able to make up for the atrocities i've been complacent in to change the unchanging i alone am solely unable to earn their forgiveness
i'm going to die alone with nobody left to attend a funeral or speak my name for any final time & a version of myself i never wanted to exist is immortalized for everyone to see on a televised comedy show if i die at all itll be as a joke without anyone to laugh at the punchline