Orchidea_:3

₊˚ ✩°｡⋆♡ ⋆˙⟡♡ ⋆˙⟡♡⋆｡°✩˚₊‧ 15yo IN RECOVERY #shedtwt OCD

[Orchidea_:3 @_Orchidea_]

Im a mentally ill and lazy teenager. I have OCD and I'm developing BPD like my psychiatrist said. I never feel real and I love kitties. I use this acc as my diary and this is my intro <333

[Orchidea_:3 @_Orchidea_]

@ohnobloodXP Ty twin

[Orchidea_:3 @_Orchidea_]

I'm so tucking close to commiting suicide, I feel so stressed all the time, my parents keep yelling at me, I don't have anything to smoke and drink, I'm crying bc of everything, I just feel so shitty and the situation with my bf isn't also good...

[JΛCΞ @jaceels2]

the concept of wanting to kill yourself because you want to live your life so badly but you can't

[§ @slowdeath888]

I think I'm larping being a person

[Orchidea_:3 @_Orchidea_]

You are, you aren't allowed to treat others badly, I don't think there are people under the age of 9 that doesn't know what's good or wrong, even if you don't have empathy (that's okay btw) you still can't treat others like shi, you are the one who decides how to act, not your mh

[Orchidea_:3 @_Orchidea_]

Sorry not sorry but Lisa from girl interrupted IS a horrible person, ofc she is mentally ill and like we can see that very clearly BUTTT she treats others like shit. If you feel like you're 100% her, pls do NOT interact with other people🙏🙏, it doesn't matter how mentally ill

[Orchidea_:3 @_Orchidea_]

During my ED, recovery won't make you fat and won't make you eat more, ofc at first you will eat a lot but it will pass soon, I'm so happy I chose to recover, I still feel like shi and wanna die so badly from my other problems but at least I got rid of one of the biggest

[Orchidea_:3 @_Orchidea_]

Okay so, I've been a bit of time in recovery and tbh, I feel better, much better, ofc I still have disordered thoughts but not as much as earlier, gaining weight isn't scary, idgaf about calories now, I feel healthy and I eat what I want, also I'm eating less LMFAO than I was

[Orchidea_:3 @_Orchidea_]

LMAOOO

[Avery @a5173042691149]

#recoverytwt #edtwt this is super scary and important to know please

[Orchidea_:3 @_Orchidea_]

If someone that follows me or knows me or sees that and does exactly the same thing I've described, please block me and never talk to me again.

[Orchidea_:3 @_Orchidea_]

Okay so, ive been scrolling on tik tok recently, AND OMFG BRO THERE ARE CHILDREN ON THIS APP AND PEOPLE BE POSTING VIDEOS ENCOURAGING OTHERS TO STARVE THEMSELVES IT'S PISSING ME OFF SO BADLY LIKE BRO JUST KYS, YOU'RE TRIGGERING CHILDREN AND SERIOUSLY SICK PEOPLE

[Orchidea_:3 @_Orchidea_]

@Dollette_angel_ Okay okay 😔

[Orchidea_:3 @_Orchidea_]

I'm Lowkey on a verge of relapsing lmao but I see people suffering here, I don't want to end up like this again

[Orchidea_:3 @_Orchidea_]

Guys. I'm choosing recovery. I mean I wont be trying to control my weight anymore, I really want to be happy. Since I started going out with people more I noticed that no one really cares about how you look like when you've found right people. I still will be on shedtwt tho

[Orchidea_:3 @_Orchidea_]

@ohnobloodXP Come to Poland pookie

[Orchidea_:3 @_Orchidea_]

HAIIIII GUYSSSS I CAME BACK so Ive been touching grass (ew) andddd I've been drinking quite a lot but now I'm trying to stay sober till the holidays, probably going to relapse with sh and bp everyday bc i feel like SHIT and gonna attempt suicide soon. Stay tuned to find out!!!