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Kindness above all

I stream art at: don't accept comm until my upcoming hiatus is through

[ᝰ @_Peindre]

1. I usually don’t do this kind of thing online, but I want to be real for once and talk about my struggles, both as an artist and as a person.
It might look like everything is fine, like I’ve got a solid grip on what I’m doing. But the truth is, that’s far from the case.

[ᝰ @_Peindre]

How do you deal with these feelings of losing someone you know close to suicide while also going through another shit storm at the same time? Can't even put my finger on it anymore; I'm numb. I need to get back to work.

[ᝰ @_Peindre]

sister is doing well as well, i helped her recover

[ᝰ @_Peindre]

@Skyy__AD @Kertinox @Cioran_T I understand, thank you i'm currently trying to resolve it

[ᝰ @_Peindre]

@DSPA1R_ @Kertinox @Cioran_T I'll see what i can do but i need to resolve this with him in dms if i dont receive any responses in 72 hours i would proceed with our standing deal.

Hope to hear from him soon

[ᝰ @_Peindre]

@DSPA1R_ @Kertinox @Cioran_T Im not going to open any commissions to cover up for it the only thing i can do is to keep on working thats all i can do im sorry

[ᝰ @_Peindre]

@DSPA1R_ @Kertinox @Cioran_T I have been sick for awhile now and i dont even get the funds to go to a doctor for it let alone refunding Kerti at the moment as i have spend every last of the penny i have on my sister.

Im sorry best i can do is to talk to Kerti in Dms

[ᝰ @_Peindre]

@Kertinox @Cioran_T i dont know what to say to people, i dont know how to articulate my feelings and whats going on in my life i dont know if im gonna say things is it an excuse or not i dont know honestly best i can do is to move forward and keep working.

Im sorry to disappoint everyone

[ᝰ @_Peindre]

@Kertinox @Cioran_T but then the accident happened and i was still out there and i never get to see her again im really sorry for ghosting you but since then im trying to better at communicating

[ᝰ @_Peindre]

@Kertinox @Cioran_T hence why i dont know what to say whenever i miss a deadline again but if you would im gonna continue this on dms thank you

[ᝰ @_Peindre]

@Kertinox @Cioran_T I'm trying so hard to push forward despitee my shortcomings. I know its been a while, and i know sometimes its not enough and I keep missing deadlines despite my efforts.

I stopped telling people whats really going on in my in my life because i think people are tired of it-

[ᝰ @_Peindre]

I might gonna be hospitalized soon, I've been sick for some time now, and it's not getting better. I've been trying to push as much work as I can, hence why I didn't really get in there sooner.

But I'll keep an update here.

[ᝰ @_Peindre]

I know ill bounce back i always come back from shit but i dont know about my sister, she is not herself anymore, neither do i but im still hanging in there somehow

[ᝰ @_Peindre]

Almost lost my sister due to a drug overdose. She is the only family I have left, and she has been abusing drugs since both grandpa and grandma passed away.

[ᝰ @_Peindre]

Fuck this life, i never asked for this. I hate making posts like this but its so hard for me to even uttter a word about how i feel to someone else let alone someone who cares about me, it just feels like im only a burden and shit whenever i do so