Going through one of the worst chapters of my life and this bitch think shit sweet! I got something hot for a pop cause that’s what it is. This what we on right?!?! Okay bet.
It’s just fucked up because I’m literally trying to get through this shit the best way I can and it’s hard asf because no matter how selfish I wanna be I still have to think about this damn baby.
Measuring small.. almost 8 months and I just pray this baby grows more in the next month. And it’s crazy because I’ve been feeling like I’m small but now its confirmed and that’s another thing on the roster to worry about.
Buttttttt I suck allllll this shit up and still show up as a mom and girlfriend.. despite how I feel I literally have to bite the bullet and keep it moving. I get on Twitter or my notes.. let it out and keep it moving.
Struggling with prenatal depression is real and I think most people only speak on postpartum but prenatal might be even worse because you’re dealing with that on top of every other pregnancy struggle and just trying not to put those emotions onto your baby..
To be 7 months pregnant I do feel small and I’ve never had huge babies so I’m not expecting that part but idk this one might be the smallest out the bunch….
I literally had to ask my Dr. to measure my stomach today because idk for some odd reason I just feel like I’m not growing and I needed a piece of mind.
I think I’m more so tired of being sad during what’s supposed to be one of the happiest parts of my life. And then everybody looks at me like I’m my own problem I guess cause nobody ever sees what my real problems are.
3/3 pregnancies and they all have been depressing asf…I have yet to truly enjoy ONE time I grow life one of the hugest blessings God can give me and it’s ruined every time.
i don't know what to feel right now, but it's so heavy and i want to cry. i want to rest, but i don't know how and where to find my rest. it's exhausting and draining. i'm so tired.