Back to this:
Imagine your wife winning PS5 at the office and she gives another man at the office with smiles and pictures.
And she comes home to tell you then gaslight you that you're overreacting when you complain.
I swear she hates you.
I like telling people, that, you know yourself best, so trust your inner voice, but not society’s opinions. Only you truly understand what you want and what suits you.