being a top/dom is the least sexually pleasing thing for me like ever. I don't like it. it makes me nervous and upset. and when I see those posts that are like "doms only top because they have to" I end up feeling like I'm forcing my husband to be dominant
I just want to be used so I have some kind of purpose. it doesn't really matter what I want, as long as the other person feels pleased by my body, as disgusting as it is.
if I didn't think it was genuinely a test of ones own natural strength to fuck someone ugly like me, I would've been selling myself ages ago. I'm too stupid for any normal job and it'd be really nice to offer this useless body to someone who just needs someplace to cum.
I just like taking. it feels good. submitting feels good and being degraded feels even better. but all the same the idea that I'm asking to be treated this way makes me feel like I'm being annoying ahah.
being a bottom is great until your anxiety tells you that you're a selfish person for wanting to have someone else fill the role you absolutely loathe and the only way to prove your love is by doing whay makes you uncomfortable/leaving the "comfortable" choice for your partner
if someone put this on me and let me hang out in a cage I would be sooo happy. I could stop masking and just cuddle my toys in my little doggy bed and sleep maybe