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f4f all sh/ed accs ily ♡

19 btw, if that makes anyone uncomfortable I totally understand

#shtwt

[*•.¸♡ Hꪱׁׅ ꩇׁׅ݊ꪱׁׅƙׁׅ֑ᨵׁׅ ♡¸.•* @_bl00d_Lust]

♡ Intro bc hi people ♡

🩸 ;; @ ⸝⸝⸝ Himiko (K) / [19] 𐕣 🩸
. ꩜ ◟ they . (he) . them ⌞🔪⌝ᵎᵎ
⸝⸝ⵌ #shtwt / working to edtwt ♡ノ‼️
『I follow back usually~』

[*•.¸♡ Hꪱׁׅ ꩇׁׅ݊ꪱׁׅƙׁׅ֑ᨵׁׅ ♡¸.•* @_bl00d_Lust]

Oh my god i underestimated the pressure after not cutting for a while and got some pretty good stryos ♡♡
Ugh they wont stop bleeding i feel validateddd

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Haven't eaten in 26 hours ♡
Ik ill have to tonight though, but its ok, ill start again after that
The numbers finally going back down, the motivations coming back ~

[*•.¸♡ Hꪱׁׅ ꩇׁׅ݊ꪱׁׅƙׁׅ֑ᨵׁׅ ♡¸.•* @_bl00d_Lust]

I dont have an excuse to feel like this.
Why am I so pissed off at everyone and everything.
Just leave me alone please everyone leave me alone. Everyone wants something from me.
Can't I be the one to have a shoulder to lean on for once..

[*•.¸♡ Hꪱׁׅ ꩇׁׅ݊ꪱׁׅƙׁׅ֑ᨵׁׅ ♡¸.•* @_bl00d_Lust]

@guminjidesu Omg yay I totally forgot about this ♡
Just ' khaoticabyss. ' should work, with the period at the end too ^-^

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The pain in my stomach is a badge of honor
It'll be my true motivation. ♡

[*•.¸♡ Hꪱׁׅ ꩇׁׅ݊ꪱׁׅƙׁׅ֑ᨵׁׅ ♡¸.•* @_bl00d_Lust]

Can I get permission or motivation to relapse, its been like a week and I just dont have energy
So maybe if someone tells me to I can do it
Tyy ♡

[*•.¸♡ Hꪱׁׅ ꩇׁׅ݊ꪱׁׅƙׁׅ֑ᨵׁׅ ♡¸.•* @_bl00d_Lust]

Probably the deepest styro ive done closed up like its fucking nothing
Im pissed.

[*•.¸♡ Hꪱׁׅ ꩇׁׅ݊ꪱׁׅƙׁׅ֑ᨵׁׅ ♡¸.•* @_bl00d_Lust]

@massivedelusion Oh thats bsss ;-;
Ty youre the only person who gives me answers pfff

[*•.¸♡ Hꪱׁׅ ꩇׁׅ݊ꪱׁׅƙׁׅ֑ᨵׁׅ ♡¸.•* @_bl00d_Lust]

So how many calories are actually kept after throwing up
Say I have ~700 logged about an hour ago, how much is still inside me 💔
#edtwt

[*•.¸♡ Hꪱׁׅ ꩇׁׅ݊ꪱׁׅƙׁׅ֑ᨵׁׅ ♡¸.•* @_bl00d_Lust]

Gonna relapse rq before going to bed, gn everyone ♡

[︴𝓃𝒾𝓃𝒾 ◌˚• 🇦🇷٭܀ @angel07gsk]

personas con menos de 8 seguidores twiteando:

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I wish people in this house stopped going out to eat all the time
Yall are the reason im so goddamn fat.
Cause oh SHOCKER I CANT TURN DOWN FOOD
FUCKING DISGUSTING PIG.
GOD I HATE MYSELF.

[*•.¸♡ Hꪱׁׅ ꩇׁׅ݊ꪱׁׅƙׁׅ֑ᨵׁׅ ♡¸.•* @_bl00d_Lust]

Yeah love im just tired. Im not actively crying or having flashbacks or just generally depressed and upset.
Just tired.

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I used to wonder how people could even think of killing someone and having no remorse
But I can feel my empathy slipping away with each day and im slowly understanding- I could make someone bleed and get annoyed that theyre crying
Thats probably not a good thing ♡

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I could barely throw anything up tonight im pissed
It was too late, I didnt have a good time to do it.

Anyways on another note tf happened to everyone im following, its been a couple days and my feed is totally dead, everyone ok? 💔

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I think eating then throwing up is the move.
Cause if the foods gone then i cant eat more of it later, its gone, its done, its not coming back
Once a day, usually after dinner, thats the plan
I hate the taste it leaves and the headaches it gives though 💔

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I need toxic wl friends, or just someone to compete with
I need someone to bully me and call me fat and gross for eating anything at all and to tell me to go throw up
I need to be laughed at and called pathetic and ugly
Please

[*•.¸♡ Hꪱׁׅ ꩇׁׅ݊ꪱׁׅƙׁׅ֑ᨵׁׅ ♡¸.•* @_bl00d_Lust]

Ive been eating way too much these days i haven't been paying attention
I need to stop eating forever or just die.

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So if i stay up all night and sleep all day I dont have to worry about being bothered or forced to eat