you don’t understand how refreshing it is to see a 58-year-old woman on my screen that has lines and wrinkles and a full life lived written across her face
ruth gemmell, you are fine as fuck
I still experience months-long depressive episodes where I quite literally cannot find in my brain motivation to do things and am deeply, profoundly so sad that it hurts, bc that’s how illness works. Sending love to everybody battling the same being told you’re “just not trying.”
Anyway, as a person who has battled severe, debilitating depression and suicidal ideation since I was 14, who has tried to “mind over matter”, been so medicated I slept for 18 hours/day, “treated it” with walks, yoga, forcing myself to do things and routines…
cried so much but still cant make peace with the fact that the kiind of life i envision for myself remains inaccessible due to reasons beyond my control