Back in 2015, in Zutter, he wrote an incredibly brutal line:
“나는 어릴 적에 살쪄봐서 돈(豚) 맛을 알아”
(“I used to be fat as a kid, so I know the taste of money/pig”)
The lyric plays on the Korean word “돈” (don), which can mean both “money” and “pig”. And the way “맛을 알아” flows in pronunciation subtly hints at the English word “slaughter”. In the MV, he holds a kitchen knife, and the blood spraying out is green ~ the color of U.S. dollars.
Back then, he thought success meant cutting off the weak, clumsy, not-good-enough version of himself. Killing that kid so “T.O.P” could sit on the throne. He really believed that killing was the only way.
Eleven years later, in Desperado, he writes something completely different:
“Your angle and mine”
Now he’s no longer holding a knife. Instead, he wants to face the other version of himself, talk to him, reach the same angle as him. That “you” is Tempo, the person he was before debut.
He doesn’t want to kill him anymore. He wants to fully absorb him back into himself, to love him “like crazy, like it’s the last time”.
After going in circles for more than a decade, he finally understood something: real wholeness doesn’t come from killing your past self. It comes from letting him return and learning to coexist with him.
The two “burials” mean completely different things.
In Zutter (2015), he buried the “not good enough” version of himself so he could become a god in other people’s eyes.
In Desperado (2026), he buries the version of himself that was once “T.O.P” so he can become a human being again in his own eyes.
It took him eleven years to go from attacking himself to finally being able to calmly hold a ceremony for the person he used to be. He’s no longer trying to kill the overweight, insecure, not-shiny-enough Choi Seunghyun. Instead, he lets that person live on in his music, as Tempo.
That’s the real meaning of T.O.P stepping down from the throne and returning to being human.
#탑 #TOP #최승현 #CHOISEUNGHYUN #TTTOP #ANOTHER_DIMENSION
D-118 since debut but they already have 26 songs
1. 4shoboiz mixtape (8 tracks)
2. Shot Callers (5 tracks)
3. Training Day (5 tracks)
4. 4shoville (8 tracks)
😭 how i love stanning ppl who are actually PASSIONATE abt making music and consider it their MAIN job
i completely understand why jaejoong can't forgive his biological father. he was only three when they abandoned him.
i'm so glad he was raised by kim's family after. he received so much love from mama-papa kim and 8 sisters. when the world is harsh, they always there for him 🥹
💙: gd, what do you eat these days?
🐉: since coming here? pizza and burgers obviously. what else is there to eat in the US?
HE’S A MENACE LMFAOOOO 😭😭😭😭😭
Gdragon checking the time when he was teaching Kwanghee the Fantastic Baby dance I’m laughing HE WAS SO WORRIED 😭
then he proceeds to say
🐉: This is like expensive private tutoring. I charge by the hour.
👤 Tell them not to leave hate comments
GD: Hate comments? Just hit “like” on them. you have to embrace that kind of stuff~ or just sue them. It’s one or the other~
I think one reason why BIGBANG has a lot of fanboys, it’s not only because of the music they put out but they never alienated their fanboys by only focusing on their fangirls and giving the delusion that we’re their girlfriends. VIPs are their friends.
Big bang pulls a bigger number on the last day late and with more VIP bans 😭 They can't beaten for twenty years in the music industry. It is very rare for this to happen with many. Sorry, but they are the ones who made K-pop #BANGCHELLA#BIGBANG