It’s my 32nd birthday and I can’t help but to think back and just be fuckin sad. Pretty much since I was 18 most of the ppl around me manipulated or just flat out lied to me. If ppl just kept it real instead of lying my life and everyone/ everything would be different around me
I asked for weed for Christmas this bitch got me a build a bear teddy bear. And a necklace. Then told me she did some voodoo shit to the necklace and told me nobody but me should touch it, BITCH you expect me to eat this now! I didn’t and she got mad at me cause I didn’t. Rightt
I’ll probably be single for a lil min I got wild trust issues. I was single for 7-8 years just to get into a relationship just to get cheated on not even 24 hours into the relationship. But of course I’d don’t find out til months later.
This is how I did my cheating ass ex. She was sleep and I just walked out and left no conversation blocked her on everything except text cause I knew she was gnna try to text me. But yeah. Only so much I can take before I just leave.
I’ve reached a new level in “I don’t give a fuckology”
Now I don’t get mad. I get up an leave without warning, no talking just leave. Cause I’ve explained shit so much it’s either u care or you don’t. I see that you don’t so fuck it. Why get mad?
Angel wings turn to devil eyes
And I can never talk to her or specify
So all I do is stress inside
'Cause when I tell my side, she try to rectify
I'm sick and tired of letting it slide I knew I should've read the signs I wish that we can, never mind - Joyner Lucas -NVM
This shit really bothers me. If certain ppl were just straight up with me from the start of us talking, my life would be significantly different right now. Instead I got lied to and played for years. Now I don’t really wanna be around anyone
After months of feeling dead
Finally feel I'll live again
Hearing voices in my head
Telling me I'll heal again
I had gave you all my love
Gave you all I had to give
I invested all my trust
And you gave me your ass to kiss- Rod wave
This might be the first job I’ve had that I tell me supervisor that I’m operating a unsafe vehicle and they just tell me to keep going, push thru adversity. 😑😑😑
I hate doin shit for ppl. I can’t even get a simple “thank you” but when I say fuck it, I’m not doin shit. I get talked about like I’m the worse person on earth. Bare minimum I can’t get that.