mia 🥒

my ed diary idk
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hw:75/cw:62/gw:45
21 yrs (05), 165 cm

[mia 🥒 @_cucucumber]

•. #edrtwt intro .•

05, she/her, bulimia, relapsed
hw 75kg, cw 62 kg, gw 45 kg
minors dni please!
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[mia 🥒 @_cucucumber]

why does everyone on here own the same scale

[mia 🥒 @_cucucumber]

anybody else purge handsfree or is it just my throat that’s broken 🧍

[mia 🥒 @_cucucumber]

just b/ped on a night bus, and i have six hours left until i arrive fml

[mia 🥒 @_cucucumber]

low restricting always makes me so anxious, my heart is racing for no reason. idk what to do because it’s also the only way that works for me losing weight😭😭

[mia 🥒 @_cucucumber]

i love skyr

[mia 🥒 @_cucucumber]

the fact that my body always stores my weight in my thighs is pissing me off so much, even at my lw i looked like clover in that one episode

[mia 🥒 @_cucucumber]

this isn’t meant to be anti recovery btw, it’s just sucks that some treatments forget the body image aspect

[mia 🥒 @_cucucumber]

med ed treatment just focused on gaining to a average weight and didn’t have any focus on liking/accepting ur body, so now im fat and still hate myself 💔

[mia 🥒 @_cucucumber]

@pusheenspr1nkle i always eat grapes throughout the day when i have exams, cuz it’s just water and sugar. most of the time i feel faint it helps by spiking my blood sugar

[mia 🥒 @_cucucumber]

«next year» is such a depressing thought, but im so motivated to not think «next year» again next summer

[mia 🥒 @_cucucumber]

god i love swimming but i hate swim suits,,,

[mia 🥒 @_cucucumber]

@uptownballerina face revealed in like 2020 on my old account and it still keeps me up at night 😭😭😭 even if im just talking about my ed i don’t want anyone irl to associate it with me, and especially not when i was interacting with thinspo threads and edtwt drama

[mia 🥒 @_cucucumber]

keep confusing kgs and lbs in peoples descriptions, no way some people have 45 lbs as a goal weight 😭

[mia 🥒 @_cucucumber]

spring rolls being 200kcal each will kill me

[mia 🥒 @_cucucumber]

i need my clothes to be loose on me again

[mia 🥒 @_cucucumber]

had to take a pregnancy test, turns out im just fat💔

[mia 🥒 @_cucucumber]

taking before pictures when I should be taking after pictures 💔

[mia 🥒 @_cucucumber]

feminist enough to hate beauty standards but insecure enough to want to fit into them

[mia 🥒 @_cucucumber]

omg im sick ❤️❤️❤️ with no appetite ❤️❤️❤️

[mia 🥒 @_cucucumber]

in a staring competition with my dad’s digital scale that automatically registers the weight on his phone ,,,