makes sense. one trade you knew you shouldn't take, and then the "wasn't my fault" feeling does the rest, because after the first loss your judgment isn't the one driving anymore. that part isn't a flaw by the way, it's just what tilt does, it clouds exactly the thing you'd need to stop it.
the good news is that's the most protectable scenario there is. the stream, the giveaway, the influence, all of that can still happen, and it costs you one trade instead of the day, because everything after it hits your max trades and just doesn't go through. that's literally what i built tradeguard for, the trade you shouldn't have taken can happen, the spiral after it can't.
mind if i dm you? think it'd fit how you already trade.
congrats on the recovery man, that's genuinely hard to do. but i have to point at something because i'd feel bad not saying it: today you're in the exact same spot as june 3. one day from payout. that's not a normal trading day, it's the highest-pressure day of your month, and last time the devil knew it too.
and the detail that stood out, even your boy couldn't get you off the charts. that's the part nobody clocks, another human still can't enforce your rules, because you can just... not listen. willpower borrowed from a friend is still willpower.
if i were you i'd lock today down before the session, fewer trades than you think, hard loss number, done at target. decide it now while you're calm, because today the calm version of you and the payout-day version are not the same guy.
mind if i dm you? built something for exactly this and today is honestly the day it's for.