it is what it is (I have no healthy way of coping, no place to vent out to so I just bury everything deep inside me until I end up doing irreparable damage to myself)
during my highschool days fade away. It's as if I'm undeserving of having that group of people you know will always have your back. I feel awful about being the way I am. I feel like the chances of building meaningful friendships that can last a lifetime during college is low
quick rant: I feel so bad for being the way I am, because it's so difficult for me to have a meaningful friendship with people. Even if I become close to them, I end up pushing them away or them being forced to abandon me.
I can slowly feel all the close friendships I've built-