As a result of ADHD, all my motivation is external. I’m motivated by spite, pressure, last minute deadlines, suffering, fear, proving my point, etc. If my world isn’t about to fall apart, I’m chilling. So, unfortunately all my lessons are learned the hard way lmaoooo
so much of adulthood is just grieving in secret. grieving ex lovers, grieving dead friendships, grieving your parents sinking into old age, grieving the person you thought you'd grow into. grieving cities you never got to live in. grieving parts of you that couldn't survive.
Before you sleep, look at Proverbs 16:9 it says, We can make our plans but the Lord determines our steps. God has cancelled plans to save your life. He sent you the other direction to avoid danger. He fights your seen & unseen battles. Trust in God, His plan is better than yours