angel

bad at adulting, good at spending money

[angel @_fawndiary]

@emptystxr01 i was half asleep when i tweeted this but this is about me LOL i’m the friend. i never realized that it wasn’t normal to think this was and not understand certain things because it’s all i know, but now that im an adult i have realized a lot about my thinking patterns

[angel @_fawndiary]

that one friend that is autistic and never realized the way they think isn’t normal

[angel @_fawndiary]

i don’t get people or the way they behave. being blunt and just straight up bullies are two very different things. sometimes people need to be called out and that’s okay but what do you get out of constantly belittling someone you call your friend and making them feel bad?

[angel @_fawndiary]

i know i can come off kinda mean and blunt but something i struggle with a lot is understanding why people are so mean to eachother and mean to me. when i say things that come off rude it’s usually because i am being blunt and don’t feel the need to sugarcoat things

[angel @_fawndiary]

and like my friends don’t get my jokes and when i’m joking they think im serious, and they don’t believe me when i say im joking. i just feel like although i have always been able to mask autism and form friendships and relationships i have never understood some things

[angel @_fawndiary]

i remember eating like 5 chocolate chip cookies my mom made and a ton of peanut m&ms and then crying about it and then i lost weight my body is so weird

[angel @_fawndiary]

i think about when i had hypermetabolism for a few months while physically recovering a lot

[angel @_fawndiary]

i keep getting anxious and feeling intense anxiety and i’m really annoyed by it

[angel @_fawndiary]

@13be9ches i’m so jealous i can’t even form words

[angel @_fawndiary]

@jaeyunzzzz i would say it’s also unhealthy but i think everyone knows that so there’s a no point in saying it lol. really it’s just so goddamn expensive

[angel @_fawndiary]

@jaeyunzzzz it’s not worth what little suppression it gives. it’s expensive as hell

[angel @_fawndiary]

have to order clothes tmrw, book a hotel, and pay for my flight

[angel @_fawndiary]

ate way too much today and im def gonna gain atleast water weight but i wont be eating much this weekend so its okay i guess.

[angel @_fawndiary]

ate way too much today and im def gonna gain atleast water weight but i wont be eating much this weekend so its okay i guess.

[angel @_fawndiary]

i hate getting my stupid ass period

[angel @_fawndiary]

i need to stop eating normally and start restricting a lot more

[angel @_fawndiary]

i need to stop eating normally and start restricting a lot more

[angel @_fawndiary]

i’m so upset

[angel @_fawndiary]

ate mac n cheese and two string cheese today and a coffee idk the cals of the mac n cheese im too pissed off to think

[angel @_fawndiary]

i’m like ravenously hungry both mentally and physically GO AWAY!

[angel @_fawndiary]

ok i still lost let’s go

[angel @_fawndiary]

ate normalish again today but i still technically ate one meal and a snack for breakfast so it’s ok ig