cōgitātiōnēs impūrae

Anon.

[Top Opp In Wyoming @wyBLOODHOUND]

@charlidamelio @Banks

[cōgitātiōnēs impūrae @_fianno]

Genuinely fuck you, bitch ass, human wannabe, lame as hawking dickhead.

[cōgitātiōnēs impūrae @_fianno]

Sciēbam, sed non poteram comprehendere. Hoc problēma est.

[cōgitātiōnēs impūrae @_fianno]

Now, whenever people start acting weird, I start to get anxious.

[cōgitātiōnēs impūrae @_fianno]

I do care. But I can't. And I won't.

[cōgitātiōnēs impūrae @_fianno]

It's the fact that I was willing to move countries for you while you can't even ask if I'm okay after you see me having an episode.

[cōgitātiōnēs impūrae @_fianno]

It's reoccurring again...

[cōgitātiōnēs impūrae @_fianno]

Day ruined. I just saw her

[cōgitātiōnēs impūrae @_fianno]

Late at night, her name once again spawns in my head and haunts me.

[cōgitātiōnēs impūrae @_fianno]

The carefully-crated ability to always manage to find innovative ways to fuck up—especially while intoxicated—is truly impressive.

[cōgitātiōnēs impūrae @_fianno]

I always manage to initiate drama when I'm with my friends

[cōgitātiōnēs impūrae @_fianno]

I kneeled before you supplicating. Now we're but strangers

[cōgitātiōnēs impūrae @_fianno]

Nunc mē dubitō

[cōgitātiōnēs impūrae @_fianno]

And I have no one to vent about it... Because I can't tell anyone; and if I did, I wouldn't listen to anyone; and if I did, I would hurt her again and prove I am the same as everyone else; and if I did, I wouldn't allow myself to love again; and if I did, the cycle would repeat.

[cōgitātiōnēs impūrae @_fianno]

I feel like a narcissist even though I've given her my all. Was the all that I gave her really just me trying to prove to her that I'm worth loving?

[cōgitātiōnēs impūrae @_fianno]

I'm hitting a wall again; mentally I'm hitting a wall. I'm overthinking again.

[cōgitātiōnēs impūrae @_fianno]

I'm never allowing myself to be this vulnerable again to a girl.