Reading old texts is so bittersweet. You texting me you realize how lonely you are without me. And now I feel a loneliness I never knew was possible. My heart hurts so bad :(
They want to treat you like normal but normal to me was to talk about him. Now I have to silence my grief to not make others uncomfortable meanwhile I’m screaming inside wanting to talk about him because he was my favorite part of life. I can’t wait to see you again boo, besitos
I look forward to the day people stop refusing to mention my boyfriends name around me as if he didn’t exist. As if they’ll somehow remind me of the worst thing that’s ever happened to me as if I ever have a second I don’t think of him. All i want is to talk about him.
The nights are so hard. The distractions stop. I miss my bf so badly. I pray I find peace one day. But I miss my boo. I miss my chicken so fucking bad.
The amount of love and support I’ve received these past few days is overwhelming. Grieving the love of your life so unexpectedly is a pain one can’t describe. I’ve had people checking on me at every moment and it’s made the process just a little less painful. I miss my baby.