while I was watching earlier the people getting capped and pinned, ifound myself crying. i thought I was okay with having no one to attend or be excited for me in that kind of moment, the surprises from parents, partners, and friends that I saw others receive.
it felt like a throwback to when I was a child, looking for my parents in the crowd but never finding them there. maybe someday, I’ll also have that kind of moment, where someone shows up for me, excited and proud.