Somewhere in your 20s or 30s you'll get the opportunity to rebuild your life after a negative loop, heal from what broke you, live in your own space, reconnect with your discipline, and learn to love yourself again. It's very important that you see that journey through.
I hold great respect for people who carry intentionality into the minor things. Like,saying they’ll call back even when it’s unimportant and actually doing it. There is a certain maturity in that kind of reliability that is just so refreshing to witness.