sos

i don't say much but i have a lot to say

[sos @_imprisoned]

I'm going to hate you by the end of this

[sos @_imprisoned]

struggling to hold multiple jobs, multiple lovers, multiple identities. none of it is enough

[sos @_imprisoned]

let me defeat myself one last time

[sos @_imprisoned]

my head is making this horrible buzzing sound and it's slowly becoming my own personal lullaby

[sos @_imprisoned]

I think I made you up inside my head

[sos @_imprisoned]

the dignity of things and the exceptional in the everyday

[sos @_imprisoned]

you had a plan. did i go along with it or did i fall for it?

[sos @_imprisoned]

watching myself like an old tv

[sos @_imprisoned]

can't get your taste out of my mouth can't get your face out of my mind

[sos @_imprisoned]

ever watched yourself become what you hate most?

[sos @_imprisoned]

thankful for the silence

[sos @_imprisoned]

i see you everywhere you're not. i see you everywhere you're missing

[sos @_imprisoned]

i hope that at the gates of hell they play me a tape of every bad thing i've ever done. i deserve to be reminded of every single one

[sos @_imprisoned]

but baby we're not right

[sos @_imprisoned]

i'm sorry for what i've become, i'm sorry for what i never will be

[sos @_imprisoned]

my bottom lip still tastes like blood you ripped me open physically almost as much as you did emotionally

[sos @_imprisoned]

i told you don't worry about it but fuck i didn't mean that

[sos @_imprisoned]

i wasted a lot of time trying to make myself perfect for you and i don't even know if i'll ever find you, i don't even know if you exist

[sos @_imprisoned]

the ladybug flying around my house is going to die sad, alone and exhausted. not too unlike myself

[sos @_imprisoned]

i'm lost in the mazes that you drew on my skin