That relationship is over. That job is gone. That failed version of you no longer exists. Stop fighting battles that have already ended. Loyalty to an expired mission will waste your life
Perhaps this year isn't about becoming anything at all. Maybe instead, it's about slowly unbecoming all the things which no longer align with you, and finding peace in the quiet return to your authentic self.
I really witnessed the Yankees win a World Series, the Giants winning two SuperBowls, & the Knicks winning the NBA finals - all before turning 30 🥹🥹