You CANNOT go back in time and change the decisions you took. Forgive yourself, move on, be your best version. You're alive and until death all defeat is psychological.
Rebuild.
The older I get, the more I understand why people disappear into gardening baking, reading, and long walks. Not because life got boring. Because peace became valuable.
Yes and every citizen gets housing, health care, food and education. Whether youre a child, with disability, a senior, marginalized- your society has come together to ensure everyone is taken car of, this is a functional society.