Not that I am envious.
It’s just that it’s so unfair.
He could have at least treated me nicer, or he could have at least had the decency not to cheat on me.
Because I know now that he can do better than the bare minimum. He just chose not to do it for me.
My cousin sent me an edited video of my ex’s and his current gf, him greeting the girl happy monthsary — whatever.
That hit me. The pictures were them eating out in a fancy restaraunt, having coffee, travelling, and laughing.
All things I wished we do. All things he promised.
If someday my baby would ask me why we dont have plenty of photos together, my reply will be “it’s because nobody held the camera for mommy, but I swear all the photographs you are in I was behind the camera.”