Brown eyed bitch

I am well aware no one likes my stuff, I am mostly doing it for me now.. venting/journaling in a way 👎

[Brown eyed bitch @_rachellyn97_]

My grandma has more friends than me

[Brown eyed bitch @_rachellyn97_]

I'm still sad Christmas is over

[Brown eyed bitch @_rachellyn97_]

I'm still sad Christmas is over

[Brown eyed bitch @_rachellyn97_]

Me: Asks opinion on new kitten, 2 full paragraphs
My mom: Another cat...... really?

[Brown eyed bitch @_rachellyn97_]

People are always like
"Rachel, that was 10 year ago.. how are you not over it yet?"
Because I'm doing this shit by myself..
Because life continued without me.. more shit was piled on and now I am drowning in unresolved issues.. that's why.

[Brown eyed bitch @_rachellyn97_]

It's so frustrating when you want to do something but dont have the mental strength to do it..

[Brown eyed bitch @_rachellyn97_]

Occasionally, I have dreams that my husband doesn't love me/is cheating, etc. He is usually mean about it in these dreams. I wake up really hurt by it and either am already crying from it or start crying... is this normal or is this trauma?

[Brown eyed bitch @_rachellyn97_]

Aww how fun.. I get to listen to my husband SNORE LIKE A FUCKING LAWN MOWER.. for the rest of my life 🥺💕

[Brown eyed bitch @_rachellyn97_]

I start falling down these holes of life and then I get knots in my stomach and want to change everything right now...
Yay..

[Brown eyed bitch @_rachellyn97_]

Being anxious and depressed quite literally consistently destroys my life.. I genuinely do not understand people who think it's quirky and cute to pretend they have it..

[Brown eyed bitch @_rachellyn97_]

If you think I am not absolutely shitting myself that is almost fall again..

[Brown eyed bitch @_rachellyn97_]

I think one of the only real adult flexes I have is that I get a discount on my insurance for being a good driver.

[no. @insuIting]

Treat 👏🏻 yo 👏🏻 self 👏🏻

[Brown eyed bitch @_rachellyn97_]

@celestehumphrey Lady Nightmares Suffering

[Brown eyed bitch @_rachellyn97_]

@sleepytk Yes, then I woke up and went to my job.. in retail..

[Brown eyed bitch @_rachellyn97_]

I think I may have a dad like sense of humor..??
For example, when I drive by places that are clearly closed but accidentally leave their open sign on.. I lean over to my fiance and ask -every time- if he wants to go in, because they're open..

[Brown eyed bitch @_rachellyn97_]

One of my proudest accomplishments is not feeling the social pressure to put all my life on social media.. 🤷‍♀️

[Brown eyed bitch @_rachellyn97_]

I'm still dying over how pretty this thing is 😍🤤💕

[Brown eyed bitch @_rachellyn97_]

@ngunn99 Who?

[Brown eyed bitch @_rachellyn97_]

I'm in between
"I'M FUCKIN HOT"
And
"Yup, I need to lose weight and get like 10 surgeries"

[Brown eyed bitch @_rachellyn97_]

I just want to feel happy, it's not that I'm not happy where I am in life. I just want to *feel* it, ya know?

[Brown eyed bitch @_rachellyn97_]

@celestehumphrey @sleepytk Oh no 😄😄😄

[Brown eyed bitch @_rachellyn97_]

Not mt ex dm'ing me adter 3 years saying "he should've treated me better" 🤮😫