Being in your 30s is realizing you can actually just... leave. The relationship. The friendship. The room. The situation. You don’t need to stay anywhere that doesn’t feel good anymore.
Interviewer: "So, if you hadn’t ended up with Barack Obama, you wouldn’t be the First Lady?"
Michelle Obama: “No. If Barack Obama hadn’t ended up with me, he wouldn’t be President.”
This is free advice from an expensive psychologist.
If you're an anxious person, do everything for fun. Go to a job interview for fun. Submit documents for fun. Start a blog for fun. Anxiety feeds on importance. Don't make everything a matter of life and death.