The reality of two people who only meant to cross paths but not to be together hits differently. But maybe, that pain and suffering redirects you to where you're meant to be. It might lead you to someone who might not be like your old love, but will give you peace and heal you.
Maybe you keep dwelling from the past and feeling like you wouldn't meet someone like him because he's the closest to making you feel seen, how he can read you like a book even without actually spending time together and can see the real you and that's the problem.
The next second he is cold and back to his old self. It's been 7 years now and we still see each other in our workplace but we no longer speak with each other unless it's work related. Those notes were supposed to be my little throwback but ended up bringing back the pain. ๐
Re-reading all those notes I created before and realized that he liked me back. We were both unsure and played the dangerous mind games and I should've known but my mind did the opposite and rejected all the moments because he is also testing the water. One minute he's into me-
Before this year ends, I want to practice saying no to things I no longer want, a situation that forces me, and requests that will not do good to me. F*ck with people pleasing shit. Entering my inner adult era.
I was told that when someone asked me about marriage, i'd say no for sure. Is that really how they perceived me as? Well, no reason to deny that but can they read me well? Or are they seeing something that I'm not aware of?