Rian✨

...Life...

[MJ @just_drmj]

I’m legit preparing to do life without romance.

[Rian✨ @_rhinooooo]

I am most DEF starting therapy again as soon as I can. Whew…The bad brain days are starting to get to me. I’m beginning to carry too much again. And it’s heavy.

I need a little healing/self care . 😔

[Rian✨ @_rhinooooo]

For the first time in a loooooooong time , I’m falling for somebody hard. This mf found a crack in the walls I’ve built , and went through it.

I kinda like it too. He’s so sweet 🤭🤭

[Rian✨ @_rhinooooo]

I think I need to take a stab at writing music 🫠

[Niamh🥀 (Fan Acc) 𐚁 @msyonceslay]

Beyoncé THEE greatest artist of the 21st century ✨

[𝐇𝐀𝐃𝐋𝐄𝐘𓄋🦾 @poisonhoneybee_]

THE CATWALK ASSASSIN

[Rian✨ @_rhinooooo]

I’m so ready for a slower life. Not in the sense of not doing things and having fun. But one where I’m financially stable, secure in a relationship, possibly starting a family…and the moments, just seem…slower. Calmer, and more relaxed. 😓

[Allie @fergyonce]

THIS PICTURE IS INSANE??

[Rian✨ @_rhinooooo]

@_brittniiolivia Because girl….nothing ??

Yasss queen give us nothing…we love her but DAMN lmao

[Rian✨ @_rhinooooo]

THIS.

[Tuk @jhammm_]

im actually going back into hiding again

[Rian✨ @_rhinooooo]

Being honest and genuine to people they you sincerely trust , means nothing. I’ve learned (in the last week) that no matter how much people tell you that they have your back…they are liars.

I always knew that, but for the first time in a real life scenario, i saw it…smh

[Rian✨ @_rhinooooo]

It’s almost not worth it to be so seriously level headed or give mfs the benefit of the doubt. What I’m learning is, that clearly , it will alway bite you in the ass.

[Rian✨ @_rhinooooo]

I wanna be in love so badly. However, I’m confident in saying that I have not met a single soul that vibes with mine to the point that I’m willing to settle down. I know how hard I love and I’m very aware of how I MUST be loved…

[Rian✨ @_rhinooooo]

I thought I was really “healed” and doing better for myself , and honestly I do believe that I am in a way…but I know…there’s nothing in my life rn that’s worth looking forward to. It’s just the same ole same ole.

[Rian✨ @_rhinooooo]

A reoccurring and extremely constant/overwhelming feeling. The desire to want more and better , but I have no clue where to start. Literally just…ALONE.

[Rian✨ @_rhinooooo]

The older that I get, I really realize how extremely lonely I am. Constantly surrounded my people but in my big ole empty brain…it’s just me babes. And it’s such a catch-22.

[Rian✨ @_rhinooooo]

That and eating spaghetti in Italy 🥰🥰🥰

[Rian✨ @_rhinooooo]

The day I can go whale watching and see Orcas in the wild…I will have made it. That’s like almost the number one thing on my bucket list .