the difference in the way my brain feels between when i wake up and when i go to bed is so jarring when i remember any experience the next morning i will feel like im remembering a drunk night out even if i was just alone in my room and dead sober
my self confidence has been at a point where all year any time i consider someone as a possibility the thought is usually squandered because i think “well i dont wanna put someone through that”
not even complaining but i dont think i will ever consider myself of sound enough mind or disposition to really date anyone again unless the stars really do align