What I find truly poetic about hippos being one of the deadliest animals on Earth is that they’re herbivores. Completely plant-based. They have no interest in eating you, they just genuinely seem to hate you on a personal level, and I respect that.
food and drinks consumed in a movie theater doesn’t really go into your body. it goes into your movie theater body which is separate & holy and harm-proof
i'm starting to understand and relate to those people who disappear when going through stuff, then reappear later after they've sorted themselves out. sometimes, someone just needs a break from everyone and everything and it's okay.
Needing approval is a sign you grew up emotionally starved. When you grow up with unconditional acceptance, your worth is never in question. You develop an unshakeable inner confidence. Your inner talk goes: "I did what I love. I gave my 100%. Whether it works or not, I'm at peace." But when love was conditional growing up, that hunger for validation follows you into adulthood. Into your work. Into your relationships. Into every room you walk into. Even when you're gifted. Even when you have talents nobody around you can match. The need for validation doesn't leave you. Because what you're really chasing is the feeling of being enough. And nobody out there can give you that.
Honestly, I think my childhood trauma came from feeling emotionally distant from my own family. I learned very early to stay quiet about my feelings because whenever I needed comfort or understanding, I felt unheard. So instead of expressing my pain, I started pretending I was okay.
I became someone who cried alone, healed alone, and carried heavy emotions silently. Maybe that’s why I love people so deeply now, because I know how painful it feels to not feel emotionally understood by the people who were supposed to make you feel safe.
And the saddest part is, those family wounds stay with you. They make you overthink, fear being unwanted, and get attached to small acts of kindness because deep down, all you ever wanted was genuine love and emotional safety.
My man said something to me that really stuck.
He told me, “I’m not actually here to control you. I’m not your dad, I’m your partner. You’re free to make your own choices. Just understand that every choice has consequences. If you choose something that damages what we’ve built, that’s on you.”
He said, “I’ll always tell you when something hurts me or crosses a boundary, because that’s what healthy communication looks like. But if you keep stepping over the line after I’ve shown you where it is, then you were never really protecting us to begin with.”
And honestly, that’s what accountability in a relationship sounds like.
I saw a quote that said “to procrastinate is to willingly endure the discomfort of anticipation, rather than the discomfort of action. Both are burdens, but only one leads to progress” and if that didn’t light a fire in me.
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