Megan

[Megan @_scarred_ghost]

it’s not the end of the story.

[Megan @_scarred_ghost]

some days i feel like everyone hates me
some days i question- WHY WOULD GOD CREATE ME? 🥀🖤🖤🖤
some days im holding strong
some days im barely hanging on
Some days, some days, some days…

[Megan @_scarred_ghost]

some days i feel i’d make a good sunset
some days i just don’t want to give up yet
some days it’s hard to breathe
some days im over being me
some days i try my best to seem happy
some days this place seems better off without me…

[Megan @_scarred_ghost]

i don’t wanna have to face it
the person that i’ve become
wearing this smile for too damn long.
i wanna sleep, take my breath,
rip my heartbeat from my chest.
no i ain’t weak, i tried my best…
i just wanna close my eyes and make it all hurt less.

[Megan @_scarred_ghost]

and no one can ever hurt me like i hurt myself
cause im made out of stone and im beyond help.
don’t give your heart to me. ❤️‍🩹

[Megan @_scarred_ghost]

will i ever feel “normal” again?
i just don’t know.
my heart plummets to the floor out of nowhere at least once a day.
i feel so detached from my life…from people i love. i feel empty.
broken. ruined.
i don’t know how to feel “normal” anymore. i think it’s too late.

[Megan @_scarred_ghost]

i’ll try not to starve myself just because you’re mad at me….

[Megan @_scarred_ghost]

Sometimes I wonder would you visit when I’m gone?
Put petals on my stone?
Remember me happy or not even at all.
These thoughts are monsters in my head.
It’s a battle I won’t win.
This can’t go on forever.

[Megan @_scarred_ghost]

every day feels a little worse.
so i just pretend.
while i write letters.
while i stop eating.
while i cut.
i’m so angry anymore. i just want to scream and hurt myself. nothing will help.

[Megan @_scarred_ghost]

💔

[Megan @_scarred_ghost]

it’s the same song and dance, you’ve all seen it before. darkness holds out his hand and we walk to the floor. every decision made isn’t mine anymore. like a puppet with strings, i just don’t have a choice. 😭😭😭😭😭

[Megan @_scarred_ghost]

“what will happen if you don’t cut?”

i’ll be forced to deal with the demons in my head that won’t stop telling me how worthless and pathetic i am.
i’ll lose my most trusted coping mechanism and feel like im falling with no end in sight.
i’ll suffer more.

[Megan @_scarred_ghost]

Is this what You wanted?
Is this what You wanted?
Make all my hopes and my dreams come to life just to lay them to rest
Is this what You wanted?
Is this what You wanted?
Give me a false sense of peace just to show me what peace really is

[Megan @_scarred_ghost]

LIKE A PUPPET WITH STRINGS
i just don’t have a choice. 🔪

[Megan @_scarred_ghost]

what's the point?
Lost the keys, lost my hope, lost my will, lost my joy
Lost a friend, lost my home, lost my faith, lost my voice

[Megan @_scarred_ghost]

and if i stop laughing all the blood will just start pouring out…

[Megan @_scarred_ghost]

@Matt_Pinner 9

[Megan @_scarred_ghost]

when you’re getting therapy but still can’t stop cutting your skin.

what a lie what a lie what a lie…..